Late at night, when the day fall... and when it's much more closer to 2008. i fear the day it falls... i fear the date coming so much closer to me. in fact; such an impact. i FEAR.
no much anticipation i hafta admit. then once again... what's so great bout 2008. Does it means everything will be better? *alright im going to be so cynical. don't read if you hope for a great 2008.
My heart has such a heavy load of metal. stung by needles. i couldnt let it off. does it even matter to me now that it's 2008.
Reflecting thru the days... i saw a lil glimmering light. and then it left me somehow, yes unknowingly... i feel that life's "just like that" vague as how it's phrase. cant elaborate exactly too.
deep in my thoughts i yearn for more. but what's more then a peaceful mind a focus dream... what will it be like in 2008 compared to a wasted 2007. my wasteful experiences - oh now im being very contradicting. experience is never wasteful. logically.
everyday after knockoff. i hope for rest day to jump straight right in. everyday when rest days are here. i stared blankly in space. thinking what shld be more? then i seriously wasted evry secs of my life.
wasn't it bad enough...
a new year i shld be flying off in a jet plane for a start of a kind of fresh air. maybe awhile. please Lord just awhile away. o' tho be fine.
i put a bravefront. but i'm not. i wanan cry. but i won't i pulled my blankets to sleep. thinking what's another day then i sleep through the night. hoping for something more. what's in my heart. a longing for something far.
when will i seriously say im sure. times when i fall. i pick myself up again. i smile. cas i need to. i wanna frown and breakdown. in front of you.
