i tut i'm fine...
but in fact i'm not.
im still dwelling on the fact i'm there.
whenever the problem is mentioned upfront.
i can't seem to keep my cool.
it shows no matter how i'm running away from it, really badly
it's back again.
like a circle, never able to escape.
it hits back once again like a rubber band.
directly into my eyes.
it's stinging... blood shot!
i'm still bothered about the fact,
that i'm not competent enough compared to my friends.
my life's fallen.
it's terrible.
where am i heading?
how do i continue this battle.
i'm sick and tired...
why doesn't this thought goes away?
i need support.
where are you...
when i needed you.
are u hiding somewhere in the dark.
becas' you wanted to.
do i deserve all these?
why am i tearing yet again.
din i convince myself that big gers never do cry.
and why am i tearing...
it's so hard to swallow.
it's so hard to look forward and know that im still there.
i want something more deserving.
had i not go through enuff.
how long more before i can see the light.
before i can say goodbye to all these and look forward to a new bright light ahead.
all these are not what i wanted.
when i can acheive...
i shall not be hasten on my actions.
i'll grit on and pull my feet.
even i dreaded...
even if i hafta drag myself.
even i hafta cry in the nite.
i'll still do it.
no matter what.
success is never easy come...
God allow me to believe that all these came for a reason.
8:34 PM
recently just found a new thing.
which can really greatly help those people who needs to know how MASSIVE THE QUEUE in emergency is like...
people always like to think that emergency is a forever waiting place. yes, no doubt i agree..
you hafta wait for service to render. you hafta wait for treatment.
*definitely illly patients get 1st priority as mentioned. always--
stop asking me what is the best time to visit the emergency dept.
look at this with your own discernment and conclude! (:
for queuing viewer. in nuh
http://www.nuh.com.sg/patientsVisitors/aeQueueViewer/aeQViewer.asp
for the Alexandra emergency pls view:
http://www.alexhosp.com.sg/AnE/index.asp
after trying high and low searching in ttsh website.
i can't find any of the queue viewer. maybe too chaotic. hahahs can't show.
if you all not alrdy knw, ttsh is the busiest in their emergency dept. so well... you know where to go (:
11:16 AM
I'm sorry in advance
*for those who have experiences in the hospital or no experiences.
somehow i believe u'll relate to this...
I’m sorry in advanceYour bed’s not made todayBut I have a patient hereWhose chest pain won’t go awayI’m sorry in advanceYou’re not happy with your mealDietary does try hard sir,To give it some appealI’m sorry in advanceYour morning pills are lateI’ve a patient climbing out of bedThat I must try to sedateI’m sorry in advanceYour mattress isn’t softWe do need some new beds ma’amBut these things do cost a lot.I’m sorry in advanceI didn’t get to comb your mother’s hairI’ve a patient with emphysemaShe’s scared, she can’t get airI’m sorry in advanceYour fathers still in painI’m trying to reach his doctorI’ll have to try againI’m sorry in advanceYour dressings aren’t yet doneBut a patient has just passed away,I offered solace to his son,I’m sorry in advanceI’m not cheery as a birdI’ve worked 12 hours, my feet acheI asked for help, but no one heardI’m sorry in advanceI’ve only two hands and two feetI’m trying to care for you, patientYour needs, I want to meetMy 12 hours now are 16,No replacement could be foundMy aching feet they cry outMy head begins to poundI’m sorry in advanceI cannot meet your gazeMy eyes are filled with tearsYour face is just a hazeIf I could sit down for a minuteAnd maybe grab a bitePhone my kids to say I love themAnd I’ll be late again tonightI’m sorry in advanceI didn’t do all that must be doneIf I worked any fasterI’d soon begin to runWhen I do get to hold your handOr wipe your furrowed browPlease understand, dear patientI care for you and howI see your pain, I sense your fearYour anger in a glance,Our health care service is failing youI’m sorry in advance.Written ByLinda LeesonLicensed Practical NurseVernon Jubilee HospitalVernon. B.C. Canada
11:09 AM
ohs no illness plaguing me...!!
flu, sore throat... just after 2 nites.. and all these coming..!!
what man??!?!
i took extra strong panadol. since a normal strength panadol doesn't work.
i think i got infected sore throat. need some antibiotics. but getting it outside of hospital is so damn exp!
well... i can survive all these.
oh yarhs and during nite shift, when it's near morning, when i was reading today. i was captivated by the swatch brochure.
what is full blooded??
love @ 1st sight!
it's a pity i can't show the pix. am tired.
pls goto www.swatch.com to view the fullblooded version pink!
sugary niceee!! $199 shld i? (:
3:39 AM
da jie's convocation!!
nothing to says.
congrats anyway! (: hahahahs
same yr to graduate with me.
let's work hard.
5:35 PM
late entry : payday supposedly to be on a 25th hahas
muahahas PAY DAY!
i can think of so many things to spend on.
but firstly ; i'll give thanks to God (:
to mom and granny.
to give my lovely siblings a sumptuous dinner.
to thank my lovely frens...
(in mind)
and sleepyhead.
money makes the world goes a lil rounder. but it doesn't make my world goes a full round.
love makes it all.
oooohhhs... irreplaceable!!
i want to go for food hunt!!
to replenish from working so hard for 2 nite shifts.
1. durian cakes @ goodwood
2.frog leg porridge @ geylang
3.salmons!
4.durian chee chong fun * can u believe that?? i've yet to try.
5.dou jiang you tiao @ selegie
6.ice cream @ the daily scoope. im missing avocado flavour...
7.beef hor fun @ geylang
8.bak KU TEH @ balestier
9.oyster @ marina (my da jie mentioned that it's super big)
10.i want tiramisu divine!
that's my top 10 list for now. if there's additional. i'll mention it.
nwaes, these are recommended stuffs for foodie hunt. my favourties of the favourites!! (:
i need just a little shopping spree.*i promise.for savings... haahhahs (as if)
5:00 PM
met up with lil bei bei niece.
totally adorable. hahas and definitely super, hyperactive (: notice the doubles.
she came over my house and tried some nice dresses we pass on to her.
those were the days wen we wore those.
but she got this yaya papaya attitude. small princess larhs! hahahas
there you go baby princess... simply loved-
12:16 AM
The best boyfriend.
i find it so hilarious. was wondering, does it means that the engineers has really low rate of chances getting a gf that's why my fren send me this to advertise. HAHHAS!!
FUNNY! (:
Any of your husband or boyfriend is an Engineer?
Message: Today's lesson - Girls must be convinced, so learn to
promote yourself - convince them that 'Engineers are the Best Boyfriends'.
Let me tell you why girls should eventually marry an engineer over a
Law,Management, Arts or Medical School Graduate. He has three distinct advantages over the rest of the graduates.
Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle
An engineer boyfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle. At
27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable job that gives him a high income to own a car, invest, have a comfortable
life,and get married and buy a house too. Law graduates are still
working as a lowly apprentice in law firm, most management graduates have
just failed on their first business plan, the arts graduate is still
looking for a job, and the medical school graduate is still living in a hospital.
Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness
An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an unimaginable amount of his
time and effort to understand you. Engineers strain really really hard
to understand their work. You can believe that they will try really really hard to understand women too, just like how they understand their work, once they believe that you are the one. So even if they don't understand you initially, they will keep on trying. Even if they still do not understand, they will figure out the correct method
to keep you happy (e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of
happiness.)
And once they find out the secret formula, they will just keep on repeating it so that the desired results appear. Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with you, the Management graduate who will try to control your spending, the Arts graduate who will 'change major', and the
medical school graduate who will operate on you. And you know what,it's really so easy to make engineers believe that you are
the 'one'.Say that you like one of their projects and they will be hooked to you forever.
Advantage 3: An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust.
Let me first tell you what is wrong with the rest of the others - the
lawyers will lie about everything, management graduates will cheat your money, the arts graduate will flirt, and you probably just
look like another cadaver to the medical school graduate. Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy to have an affair, and even if he
does, he is too dumb to lie to you about that. Hence, an engineer is the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find - rich enough, will
keep on trying to understand and please you, has no time for affairs,
and too dumb to lie to you. So girls, why procrastinate?
Get an engineer for your boyfriend!
2:49 PM
it's been so hectic day and night.
but it's my pleasure working i guess.
the shift work is bitting into me. but i'll hang on.
getting abit moody these days. not very happy.
feeling quite terrible.
i hope my frens understand.
and i really love someone who always stand by me.
sleepyhead treats me yummy ice cream
and, fang for always being there when i need to yelp. need to fess up.
she's there.
life's not that bad after all.
is God that i'll find strength.
pull me through Father... and one word i'll follow.
one heart i have with you.
it's DAY OFF.
finally for once. TGIF! sat is off for me.
IVC and IVM i haven study yet. any tips anyone?
i believe God place me there for a definite purpose.
i'll trust n believe and have faith. for having faith means to believe the unseen.
i will Lord,guide me through...
* now i dunno isst, there's some connection with my com wanna upload photos up to blogger or friendster or even photobucket. IT'S not working!!!
my lovely bestie. (:
1:39 AM
-13th Black Friday 2002-nothing remarkable. just remembered during my secondary sch days when i really got it. sec 2 i guess...i left my whole file of worksheets at home. and i'm not able to pass up all my hwks.the teachers tut i deliberately did that. it was hell terrible. my 5 yrs back of bLACK friday!-13th Black Friday 2007-
Nothing special.
but very heavenly to me. even tho it's black friday...
cas' i'm off today. like SUPER happy!
you never want to be in emd on this day. *im not trying to sound very superstitious, mind you.
never been thru this day there. maybe in the many years.. definitely i'll come across this special supposedly unlucky day.
it's out for some retail therapy. i hope it's doing something to my burnt out brains and body.
-hopefully a dinner with you.
black friday would never been that bad afterall...
12:19 PM
it's all because of you Jesus.teach me your ways...
*someone stepped into my life recently. hopefully forever... (:
12:00 AM
officially started work yesterday...i'm dead beat after just finishing 2 days!i wanna cry, but Big girls don't cry...my department is so big, i hardly can breathe and drink and eat.just because of this. my work extended 1 hr plus.had my so called dinner "supper". and slept becas the next day was an early morn...well, God knows...i woke up in the middle of night having a terrible tummyache.good nuff' gotten some BAD diarrhea.*oh no God... how am i gonna survive thru my years in nursing... i feel so underpaid, overwork. what's the world turning into? sighs!turning angels into devils.where is sufficient attitude exuding from?* it boils down to passion... i'm still leaning on it.hopefully not dis-illusioned. Jesus...
11:54 PM
Look at the stars,Look how they shine for you,And everything you do,Yeah, they were all yellow.I came along,I wrote a song for you,And all the things you do,And it was called "Yellow."So then I took my turn,Oh what a thing to have done,And it was all "Yellow."Your skinOh yeah, your skin and bones,Turn into something beautiful,You know, you know I love you so,You know I love you so.I swam across,I jumped across for you,Oh what a thing to do.Cos you were all "Yellow,"I drew a line,I drew a line for you,Oh what a thing to do,And it was all "Yellow."Your skin,Oh yeah your skin and bones,Turn into something beautiful,And you know for you,I'd bleed myself dry for you,I'd bleed myself dry.It's true, look how they shine for you,Look how they shine for you,Look how they shine for,Look how they shine for you,Look how they shine for you,Look how they shine.Look at the stars,Look how they shine for you,And all the things that you do.
6:00 PM
graduated on 4th July,thanks frens and lecturers for making my 3 yrs worth it (:definitely my patients that allow me to hang on to.my calling, i'll receive.my passion it stays.cas i love nursing.no matter how hard it is,i'll strive on and compete.i'm the 5%.when people doesn't want to do.i'll do it.i believe i can make a difference (:i just started my work life. like finally, well i saw my patient, amazingly she recognised me. oh no, i guess, that's the life of being a nurse. -IM SO SHOCK! and HAPPY!!(: nwaes, she's my patient long long ago. amazingly...wanted to post pix. as usual blogger is DAMN LOUSY! (;
while i was in the auditorium. feeling so proud'ahem
hellohs cert!
the clique us. beautiful babes.angels!
10:46 AM
