.:happily ever after ?? God my forever:.

i knw i shall ask... but all that i meant well. wad done is done. at the most i'll pay evrything. pls don't spoil my mood for my coming days left in hongkong.
- im still thking of u. do u ?
wad do u take me for...

10:57 PM

yehs! finally ive checked in to terminal 1 !! came here and saved up my taxi fare becas a very gd fren volunteered to send me to d airport! thank God for nice fren like him! =)) fancy waking up @ d wee hrs just to send ur fren.
nwaes, my nose's itchy !! smelt loads of perfume now im gonna sneeze! hahs!! bought hueiping's game from davidoff and mind dolly ger! yeeeahs... gonna get thru the gate thk it's opening soon. and linzi lookin! she ask me wad im doing damns.. hahas n told me that her bf can enter zouk free with citibank credit card. bullshit. hahahas! well forget it, she treated me 1 sakae sushi! ;p and amelia fed me a orange muffin! yuccks almost puke! gdbye dey're calling gonna rush off. soon u peeps!!

5:46 AM

not that i think it's damn important to get this across, but ive decided to let people know that, im living my life well and that im almost gotten out of my difficult situation tho at times im still struggling no qualms, i got God's strength.
i work and i slog and then i get exhausted and burnt.- den finally i'll choose to stop just to take a breath and then i start weeping with tears rolling uncontrollably. and then i'll ask God what's his will? all over again. again n again. till im tired n sick. and then i tell myself. someday it's gonna change. i'll ask, " God' i knw ur will, and i'll follow."
ultimately, i'll not be thinking.
been enjoying myself in children church bringing smiles and laughter to kids. tho im tired, im still serving well. Becas my God is a great God.
sometimes i'll question myself, why must i go thru all these? and then i'll stop and tell myself to take a break. and then i'll fight against my conscience, no u can't stop becas u stop u'll think. why bother? and then i start sloggin.- when will it end?
only when im neither here nor there. when ive reach the final destination n hopefully after this month. haven been happy for this whole month or let's say these past few months.
trying busy enuff to keep myself fully occupied. that happens for these past few months.- now i wanna take a break away from sg. gdbye, my frens' hopefully i''ll choose to rest in peace at UK. after studies in sg. cas im tired. nothing is really worth my stay except for grandma and mom.
in case evryone is shock to see RIP. well it doesn't mean the RIP it usually meant.
sch's tmr. im happy. im still praying for u, don't worry and i still have u in my heart. i'll be missing. but it's not gonna last for long...really.. cas one day it'll be used up.

12:26 AM

now ive declare to MIA for this whole of aug. so if i decided to post sth after this post. it's either gonna be a very impt post or there's sth i hab to annouce. otherwise it's totally impossible to see me post again. for this whole of aug ive decided to be missing while in search of myself once again.my life has gone for a total waste and i wanna be a new fresh person during the month of sept and like once, have my inspirations set and goals to be acheived.
looking back at the past few months, it's either ive to thank all these for happening or maybe blame it for all that had happened. well, i shan't blame but Thank God for all that had happened, and that im up another level in my attitude towards life, God has allow me to see things yet again differently. all things come for Good...
money has been a big issue for me. and i need a job soon. let's hope God gives me a clinic job asap. where i can start getting more familar with drugs and den also to keep myself more occupied.
for this whole month ive decided to do sth meaningful...
but well the meaningful things ive yet to decide. hahas-

i still will miss.
i believe if it's meant to be it's meant to be. no use forcing, or doing something extra.

2:15 PM

this is my new phone 6280. happy as i seem to be. =) mommy got it for me totally awesome.

and my frens get a hand on my phone before i realised, it was too late. they alrdy snapped a no. of pix...

.and when i was feeling the worst becas i was sick on that day, my sweet angel bought me a lemon honey to cure my SORE throat. i got it during my break.

after that it was boring, discussion time. all my time i was cooped in this elab doing proj discussions...my 3 grp mates. - dey look kinda serious.

now this is me and my 2 other grpmates. trying to relax after thking so much...

now it was all dark and unclear, becas we headed to kbox after discussion.

chongquan was very gloomy becas of the lousy service kbox. that receptionist ger pissed me and him off. attitude. nwaes i got her back but writing a BIG HUGE compo. and passing it to her manager. God bless u.

anyway after seeing all these pictures took in kbox. u can jolly well conclude that nokia 6280 doesn't work well in NOT WELL LITED places. yarhs.

after we got out chongquan tut he set his foot on the wrong age. WOW What was that FEET DOING HERE??-gasped.

the 2nd day, i took some pix.

was in the lect hall saw that long long biscuit? i was trying to smoke.

now this is me, im back home after a tiring day out.

2:49 PM

the thought of it makes me wanna cry, makes me wanna be in self-wallow.
why is things so difficult to bring across? why isst that when it comes here and then ends just like that?
my life, hasn't it been always like that?
im really sick, totally disappointed. i told myself that it's gonna end here. im not pushing anymore. i don't wanna initate anymore. im just not your priority.
where does all the stress comes from?? now i fully understand what happens to me when im in serious stress. i don't eat, i look @ the food it makes me sick, wanna puke, my stomach goes into serious turmoil and i hab no mood for anything. d fact is liddart.- u made it.
yes, im hard on myself. and i chose to be that. i can't never be easy on myself.
yesh, it's my choice... agree that im kinda dumb. i seriously thk so.
and when im say im thking about it, you doesn't. - so now that's silly.
and i say i thought it was liddart. - but u doesn't - now that's foolish
and when i say yarhs I KNEW IT WAS OVER -but u already KNEW it long before i concluded.
---that's total retardness.

now u see what i mean?

and i need some psychologist if this drags on and when i can't jump out of tis pit.
i'll jump. ;/

2:40 PM

technically, i think my body had been overworked. and now it's in tremendous restructing and giving me loads of problems.
1stly - i've lost my humungous appetite somehow. (which is the lest expected)
2ndly - i can't take LOADS of food at one go. think i'll vomit and get into extreme pain in my stomach.
lastly, - im utterly disappointed with you. (im serious) you've been testing my patience, and do try more.. try more hard... i'll turn my back , well don't try harder too, cas im kinda pissed alrdy. you better be more sincere... or i'll gonna just turn my back towards u. im sorry. but i had enuff.

- maybe it's stress.. maybe it's problems unsolved. well for whatever, becas of all these accumulated into my body and brains. it causes me BIG prob. like giving me colds and sorethroat, feeling heaty and having flu @ the same time. and den losing my appetite and seeing food and feel that it's never gonna be delicious once again, more look at it makes me sick.
how terrible???
Oh Lord, what has it been turning me into??
Where is the me?
Im a sick child. ;/

10:28 PM

yups, now im finally officially SICK! how gd? hrmphs bad sore throat and flu yet i came to sch. think no right mind person would hab come to sch when the're sick. im one sick crazy nuts person. ohs well now in sch blogging. hahs. mommy is coming to fetch me home. ABSCONING the last lect! yups!! and heading for 298 bucks hp! evryone take care! i hate being sick!!

1:14 PM