.:happily ever after ?? God my forever:.

2 words to describe SIMple Plan's CONCERT live in SG!! " Incredibly Awesome"!!... Simple plan ya rawwks!! aWwww...[screeamin]
i've been jumpin crazily wit my sista...njoy it. simply simple plan hahahas...
loorve deir songs, deir guitar, their voicee... charming dudes.
did i mention, pug jelly was dere too!! dey're lk soo fantastic.. double bonus fer choosing de rite host fer simple plan's concert. i loorve deir song. which has top 98.7's top 20. i'm loorving it madly. my sista is crazy over dem too, she bought their cds which is lk de last piece, dat lady took de sample dat she displaced out to be sold to us..hmmphs. useless ar? gif us de pug jelly last disc. shld hab bought it at some cd shop. nth special inside, tut' dere'll be lk signatures or something. useless ar!
shucks man, de crew members threw de drum sticks n i din catch it lar. or elsee, i'll be screeamin.. kks dat's wad de ger was doing wen she caught the drum stick lar. exactly wad i mentioned.!!my sista n i was wondering if dat ger has gone nuts or something. but..neways who kaires. dat's lk her business hahas. we took a couple of photos , self shot n duo shots. duo shots was neva easy wen dere's onli lk 2 person taking fer themselves.. we struggle to take some realli nicee photos n yeps, finally lk hab 1 dat's realli gd. hmmphs. siighs. i hafta miss avril's upcomin concert which is soo near ta my exams. srle =p hahas.. but her tix r lk darn exp. duuhs. who wuld eva considering buyin it. esp she's singing solo lor! unless i'm lk her die hard fan which i'm nt. so obviously i wun waste de money on her, i'll rather lk buy clothes fer myself=)

1:42 AM

crap lar k. i've waited so long to blog. now i almost forgot wad i wanna typee. stuupids. yar de earth is indeed round. well certified, all my frens r alwaes kinda link to one anth n one aft anth. it's a small small world.
well, i invited alot of peps to witness de glamour moment of me finishing de 75km. n esp de one i wanna see on dat dae, tho no promises frm him. but i hopee he'll come.=) now feeling abit achy here n dere, i thk seriously my mom shld consider to buy a new office chair fer me. it's been makin my bones aching here n dere. i dun feel comfortable at all.
my study timetable dun seem realli efficient cas of de hectic schedule i'm currently havin. tmr i'll be makin my way to suntec fer simple plan's concert live in sg! n rubby's commission is tmr. hopee u're blessed by evry1 . incl me! hmmphs.
siighs i suppose it's abit too latee alrdy n yet i'm lk still taking my timee to blog down de stuffs. neways, i'm alwaes makin de same mistake, pinning too high hopes on certain stuffs n den wen i noe it's nt the way i wan, de fall is realli pain. nds some drastic change in my thking or i' thk i'll suffer again. dunno if he's feeling wad i feel. bored bored lar. i'm deadest bored.
before i enter the exam hall, i better burn de books n drink the ashes up so i wun hab mental block wen i entered. isn't it a fab way? sounds kinda freaky lar. stuupid lk some medium ... hahas... darrn. lalaaas.. i'm tired k . no one wanna chat wit me lar. i'm lk alwaes initiating de chat. sounds so spasteek. k . but it's de fact lar. studyin time seriously is nt full of fun. full of misery! i dun wanna feel guilty after my exams so i better stuff those facts into my brains or i'll screeam at myself fer not werkin hard enuff. [sccreeams]

1:47 AM

kkaes feeling abit relieved.! i thk my psycho is studied finish within 1 dae. nd 2-3 hrs to revise n it'll be done!! wheEe...
Intrinsic Vs Extrinsic = Pyschology term. Motivation.. hahas.
1st logic - Having internal motivation thru treatin the things u do as a challenge or out of curiousity.
2nd logic - Having the external factors to motivate ya. lk giving infinite cash or punishments..(beatings)
I hope i hab a balance of both fer my studies so ... i'll be super motivated hahas. n i've jux learnt dat i shld hab goal setting theory fer myself so to improve my grades.!!
I've gif some serious tuts in my goal setting and hab it in tis way...
Anatomy And Pysiology - C+
Clinical both - A
Pyscho - A
Sociology - B
hmmphs seems realistic rites? i've go according to the grades i've achieved during my last sems. So it'll seemed more acheiveable. kkaes. dat's all fer now. gonna be a mugger. tho i seriously hate muggers. now ihafta admit myself i'm gonna transform to a hard-core 100% full time mugger. see ya guys ard. i'm gonna go fer simple plan's concert on wed to destress myself. guys all de best fer studyin and alwaes remember... STRESSED wen is read the other way is a piece of desserts. so treat it lk 1 n ya're gonna enjoy !! (= ---- chill muggers!!---

11:03 PM

ok..i waited n waited n waited. times infinity . and i finally realised i waited fer nth! bleeahs niites. stupid brother still not bad. called i asked where he was n he scolded me back fer being nosy...wad de..?? ..! wadevas. stuupid.. evry1 is. incl me !!

1:00 AM

ok lar. i'm feelin rather down now.
i shld be happi lar at least i went out wit someone. the skit was really greeat. i went indoor stadium to catch city harvest's easter day skit. Kinda cools but i've seen it be4 in passion of christ. I'm touched by lotsa of things, but i' noe i'm still not rdy to accept jesus into my life. I'm like kinda sad , sad dat i keep resenting dat it's my fault dat things alwaes happen tis way. That i've never appreciated things in my life. N fer now i'm resenting. kkas. no use it's over. N nw n den i'll cry becas i'm feeling guilty it's never gonna be outta my lifee.. It'll stay. Siighs.
shrugs* i dunno i dunno whether to blif jesus's work or not. Dat healing does exist. If it's soo y did... kk i dun wanna mentions.
My lifes. not great tut it'll be over. Mayb it's a blessing in disguise. But it's happening to me again. Now my family's in big deep shit. kkaes. my mom... siighs. nth. alrites i'm nt gonna mention again. alrites now n den i've been tryin to run away from it. so at least i wun be able to be bothered bout it. But i noe it's a short term thing. I knw i can't run away it forever. I've gotta be strong again. I'm nt so blessed lk how peps painted my life to be so wonderful. Now wad i hope is dat my mom will come back to senses. Siighs.
i'm really tangled up in mixed up emotions. Who wuld understand y i've never accepted christ even tho.. i've sooo many million chances. Who noes de real me ? Neither me.

1:37 AM

feeling kiddy, perceiving things in sucha unmatured style. siighs. it's overuling me again. dat stupid feeling of me. tat temptation, y can't i be more discipline? it's realli affecting me, n i shan't let it happen. dat tingling sensation, feelin creepy. pssst.
i'm thkin of someone n shan't be bothered bout such lil feelings i had. studies come 1st no matter wad. n i noe dat it jux ain't de rite time.
now my ears hab tis sharp pain. bleah. siighs ystd had my aq training was quite slack but still i survived de training. feeling realli pressurized by evry1's dream of coming in top 10. Seriously i'm not confident of myself. i noe it' i haven't been training fer eons.n therotically it means by stamina has went down by 1/2 was kinda upset by de way how i've dragged my team-mates down. i'm so afraid i'll not allow dem to fufil deir dream of comin in for de top 10 in aq. siighs. it isn't as if i'm not tryin my very best to run. i had! n i sense so much dat u're condeming me i ain't happy bout it, i'm sad, disppointed. the others was realli great dey encouraged me. seriously i thk u hab a bit of probs... i'm jux a ger i'm tryin my very best. if ya thk i'm nort n dat my stamina is lousy so be it. i've tried. n i noe i did.... i'm so nort gonna kaire bout it neymores. siighs. i shan't hab joined aq lar. i was realli regretting my choice.
but fer now i noe i can't back out n i'm gonna give my best shot in it. hopefully i wun let dem down.siighs.

11:39 PM

i thk... my comp has some realli serious probs. lots of adwares, spywares, viruses invaded my comp!! kkaes, n now finally i reset my password fer my singnet login and i thk it'll take me 3 werkin days b4 i can be back onlinee agaain. siighs. so it means i can't chat wit my frens in msn. gRrr.. alrites lar i'll take tis chance to study as wad i've promised to someoone or he'll start yankin till i start studyin hahahas. i thk he wuld neva see wad i blog lar. -giggles. n yar.... someone pls heelp!! any1 who has epson stylus c63 software? need it for installation. thanx gRrrr... tag me or sms me if u hab it. will realli appreciate it.
neways, i'm back from the ecp camp. siighs wasn't realli nice lar, except dat i got to shout in front of de vast sea wit my 3 gfs lols. darrn fun. we shouted our unhappiness and cried out our sorrows. feelin empathy fer vons, take loads of care kkaes?? guys r not worth our concern. dey're jerks. hahas. I shouted n scolded lk craziee. reaalli looorve de sea. hmmphs mite hope i'll shift somewhere near to de sea in future. awww...
evry1 i'll be back (= after my exams.

hopefully ...

3:15 PM

i'm goin for bb's jurong west camp at ecp. see ya tmr... (= muaacks..

5:03 PM

hees. it's been ages since i had a greeat luff. I went to watch spongebob squarepants wit fang. Darn farnni. was luffing thruout de wholee show. aahhh...sponggy.!! sooo cuteee.. lols. went shopping wit fang b4 tat. I m sooo tempted to buy lots of stuffs. That blouse i spotted in MNG, de mini skirt i set my eyes in Zara and de cutee guy dat i hopee i can buy him back?? hahahas. or shld i sae get his no.!! lols. i dun thk i hab de courage lar. Brought fang to hab a look at him. She commented tat he was'nt as cute as she tut. ohhhh c'mon lar He's cuuute !! hahas... madness. kkaes. Fang was even moree mad. She sae she can help me get his no. But i was lk NO!! hahas cas i tut if i wan his no. i shld be de one who's gonna ask him. This shows dat i'm sincere lar. Isn't it tis way?? But i tut i'll be blushing , so i decided to drop tis stuupid idea. Was even super stupid wen we left the shop and started tokin bout how shld i ask his no. Likee.. buyin stuffs frm dere and tryin on de shorts aft which ask him fer anth size n den ask his no. Moore discreet less attention lols. But i came up wit even a lamer idea, i tut of pullin him into the changing room. Daarn.. how lame can i get ?? hahhas. I thk he'll freeak out n will never gif me his no. He'll be thking tis crazy ger actulli pulled me in ! How mad can she get?? lols. alritee. so much of de lameness..heees..

12:13 AM

sippin ribena and ponderin wad shld i blog. can u hear it comin can u trust urself? flyy... hilary duff sing tis song- fly! kkaes tryin to get evry1 into my current mood. neither happy nor sad. i tried nort to label wad's bad n wad's gd so at least, it stops me from comparing. kinda gd way, tried a couple of times.
Haven been running fer eons, now my muscles are kinda stiff. Suffered cramps b4 tat, was running too much. hmmphs. training fer aq if all of ya r not aware by now. Tough tranings, wasn't up to such tedious thing. Shld'nt hab tut of joinin at the starting. But neways, i beginning to loorve the company of my team-mates. And i alwaes look forward to the dinner session wen we gonna gobble all the food. Hees. Sounds lk somee... monster who's starving fer days. yiips.

We all fail.
But it is not failing that hurts
What hurts is knowing that you didn't give your best.
Therotically, i categorise myself as de person who experienced dis. I dun wanna fail myself, cas i noe i'm not werkin hard enuff. Got back my Bio pract results, tho i've passed but it wasn't ideal. My frens pass at a better grade den me. Yar. alrites i'm comparing again. I ain't sastified lar. alrites. I just hafta blame myself for nort werkin hard enuff and tryin to makee myself super busy wit lotsa of activities evolving ard me.Forgetin to add in addtional time fer my studies...siighs

Have the discipline to do lil things you don't lk-
and you can spend ya life doing the big things u do lk.
Yar i abhor studyin, tho i loorve nursing. farnni logic. it' doesn't realli make any sense. But yar i better hab tis much of discipline to study and den i can spend my lifetime doin de BIG THINGS I LOORVE!!...

11:03 PM

i'm gettin really paranoid bout de fact dat i haven been complet'g my stuffs on time, n i'm gettin fustrated at how greatly i've changed... to be more precise, my attitude is gettin really bad. i'm lk moree sensitive bout the stuffs ard me, gettin jealous in a matter of secs. I noticed de tremendous change in me but still i wasn't rdy to try changing myself. I was tryin to be clear of wad i really wan. I know i get jealous easily becas, i'm nort confident bout myself. I've tried consolidatin all de factors dat lead me to such state. and was kinda clear dat it's becas of....no confidence. dat's de main thing bout evrythin. I wasn't confident bout gettin things i wan. I tut i wun be able to make it. N worst i alwaes doubt my abilities, i'm alwaes nort happy bout who m i. Frankly speakin i wasnt' sastified bout who i m. Who i really m . I was questioning myself. I felt kinda useless. Peps ard me seems really strong in evrythin. N i alwaes hope to be like dem. I wasn't able to convince myself wad strong pts do i possess in ? I was gettin super jealous at all of dem. I tried calming myself , but at times, it goes uncontrollable n i jux go berserk. siighs a bad attitude dat any1 wuld wanna witness. I wuld jux remain silence and do nth but sink into self denial... I try denyin to myself evrythin wuld jux be finee. But it's diff den it' seems to be.
Read a book dat my lil sista recommended dun thk it's kiddy at all : Happiness in a Nutshell.
Written by Andrew Matthews
Saw this really meaningful phrase...
The happiest people don't worry too much about whether life is fair or not. They just get on with it.
Thoughts: Seriously... i ain't happy cas i thk too much. dat's a major weakness dat i possess, i tend to thk toooo much. dat's y i'm alwaes nort happy. n i'm stress wit wadeva dat's in my way. I tried to solve it but i can't n thus affects my daily life which i had to compromise my thoughts into it n try puttin in into effect onto the situtations i predicted how it wuld be, and keep sulkin at how unfair life can gets, usually.. my life get stucks. thus i'm nort happy. alrite to solve it. i gonna try NOT TO WORRY too much n get on with life. (=

1:35 AM

There's nothing really interesting for me to note down into my blog. School ended early, and i had no plans afterwards, i headed towards town to buy a belated gift for my fren. I was amazed to see lotsa new designs hung onto the hangers. Roxy got the new batch of desings coming in todae. I was crazy over the designs, mainly wallets which i was alrdy craving to buy it once it arrvives. I know that gers in sg are esp crazy over roxy stuffs and i just culd'nt gif a better explanation y dis happens for some reasons,... i'm one of them. I don't understand myself too. Mayb roxy sounds sporty and girly, and tat's wad evry ger wanna be perceived as. Kinda contradict but wadeva isst. I dun realli kaire. I'm jux kinda worried my wallets designs wuld be sweep out in no time. I called my lil sista along. And while waiting fer her, i roamed about roxy botique to botique and made a survey over wad designs dey took in. Finally my sista arrived and we settled at paragon's roxy shop. I bought a roxy handbag, wallet while my sista decided to purchase anth design which i saw in pacific which has tis tangerine strips which looks realli kewl n i ensure her she'll loorve it more den de pink wallet she was bout to buy. Indeed she loorves it loads. SEE?? I din make de wrong choice fer ya. and btw we were kinda rushing towards pacific as i fear dat the wallet will disappear in no time. I bought bangles which left a few. I was happy i bought it. I suppose u wun be able to spot anth bangle in town. or mayb i culd sae, in sg ? lols.
I'm now kinda worried bout the attitude i'm possesing. i ain't feeling nervous dat my exams r gettin nearer each day. I better buck up. siighs. Yipes my life can be realli view at diff angles. wanna view it straight ? i got cash n money flowing non-stop my frens sae how u got ur cash ? no ans to ur qns sorry. view it from anth angle ? i lost something dat i presumed it's more valuable den money... wanna noe ? unless u're realli close to me ask me. =p view it from the other angle, my ties r now much more closer wit my lil sista. kinda happi tho. view from the back angle, i'm now not makin much effort in my studies which i actualli SHLD!! view it from the last angle i'm gonna sae, at least now i'm learning stuffs dat i tut i wuld'nt learnt. hmmphs. gonna try out wakeboard in no time. aft my exams.? 3 weeks break woo.. neways. i wasn't tryin to make a big woo ha over tis matter but seriously i thk u better reconsider ur actions. i wanna u to thk mature as u're alrdy one mature person. siighs. can't ya be more considerate wit ya actions ? pls dun stray him.

11:46 PM

i'm in deep shit! i still cannot feel the intense heat of nort studyin wen i'm still left wit 1 more mth to prepare for my exams. awWwws.... i nd somee pushin..grr
alrites. de day b4 ystd. i was outta wit my lil sista fer shoppin.!! i bought a clutch den i'm hesistant to buy, a white OP 3/4 , yar finally found 1 white pants. bought my lil bro a ripcurl wallet which will made me go broke. which cost lk 60 bucks GRrr.. and my lil sista a billabong handbag. i thk i'm lk goin bankrupt alrdy. siighs. hahas. but i'm happi at least i got dem something.
i spend quite alot. but was happy den i possess de taka's voucher which seems lk a cash voucher use lk nobody's business. hahas. gonna bring my elder sista along fer shoppin too. hmmphs.
den let's tok about ystd, i went sentosa wit my frens n allow my sista to tag along. she mentioned dat she haven been to beach fer eons. so i decided to bring her along fer some sun baskin session wit me n my frens. indeed a fruitful dae. she got herself burnt. and i got myself burnt too. played volleyball wit my frens. n did i mention ? i looorve de sea . n de sandy beaches. darrrn...!! i'm soo in looorve wit ya hahas. hmmphs. wanna head fer my diving session so i culd go diff beaches. i thk i seriously need some savings to withstand my excessive spendings.
neways, wanna werk but i haven found time to do dat. wanna study 1st. n i actualli saw my attachment timetable, i'm gonna werk on my bdae . aWww... wad a bdae celebration i'm gonna hab.siighs. seriously i thk dere's somethin wrong wit de timetable schedule, i'm gonna werk in de surgical ward fer 4 weeks while others onli werk fer lk 3 weeks ? UNFAIR! waWww...wadeva..!

2:49 PM

oh mans it's gonee.. blogger has somethin seriously goin on. awww..it's driving me nuts.
now i'm gonna repeat wad i typed, just nort long ago. a few secs back ?? darrrn.
happily ever after ....
i loorve shows wit gd endings howl's moving castle is a darn fantastic gr8 anime. watched it wit ben n von, eby back out at the bery last mins fer some stuffs. alrite.wadeva hmmpss... de show is suuper fairy talee.. jux becas de ger looks old n ugly in de end howl still chooses to loorve her. it'll neva happen in rreeal life. sounds pessimistic isst? yeps i m. frankly speakin. it's truee. no guys wuld not go fer looks . alrite so much bout loorve.
i was off early, n i shopped alone in orchard. wasn't realli gr8 no opinions on wad shld i buy, but still i bought quite alot of stuffs, mayb no one is dere to stop me from buyin my stuffs hahas. n i thk i wasted quite alot of money. i even trade in my rm50 bucks fer 20 sg bucks fer xtra money fer movie tix n food fer dinner. i starved myself n waited till ben came den i took my 1st meal of de day...sounds darn spassteek ?? yeps! i avoided taka's basement1 so to prevent myself from faliin into temptation n bought finger food n left myself wit no money. hmmphs. hahaas... i bought a topshop's top and gained myself a 10 bucks voucher, a pair of hawaii flower earrings and a hairband. i visited roxy shop n realised dat dey stocked up moree new goods. so it means splurging more on those stuffs. gonna head back tmr wit my lil sista to buy her de sch bag and blaaah....wadeva. sucha spendeer.. hmmphs.nites' i'm tired reciting de whole incident of wad happened todae. neways, howl's moving castle is highly recommendable fer all ages. i gif it 4 out of 5 bits haas..perfect 10 ?? waaadeva

12:41 AM

temptation island ish back...haas..
kewl...i loorve the variety show becas dey potray.....breath-gasping beaches..hope my honeymoon wuld be dere..haas..wad de...!!?? y m i thking of honeymoon lols. alrite back to de main topic. i can't stop luffin at how unfaithful de ger had treated her bf. betraying him n beiin so close wit anth guy. darrn. lols. even as a young lady i dun approve her behaviour.yiikes. turns me off. so it shows how vulnerable can ya love get wen ya shaken by diff circumstances. And i find it super farnni dat de guy can't stop scolding de woman bitch hahas...
i thk she deserve tis name. sometimes, guys r unfaithful too nort onli gers...to sum it all, humans r unfaithful creatures...hmmphs. agreeable.
pyscho isn't really a difficult module. i thk the most impt thing bout it is to understand de concept behind it. haas. it's darn interesting cas u can related to ya evryday life.
super amazin.. i ain't feelin tired at all..hmmphs.m i too overjoyed or wad? lols. not sure. but yeps mite be de case. alrite i thk i better stop crappin gtg guys see ya ard...soon. gonna blog real real soon. i'm alwaes updatin my blog entries. unlk some peps who leave it n rot. haas...(=

2:00 AM

heys, i'm kinda fed up bout the fact dat the internet connection has some probs. seriously...it's sickening.typin my blog and had it cleared away without publishing out. darrn. wastin my time. i was tryin to mention dat ystd, finally had my clinical and anp pract. Clinical was funny, at least i passed, as fer anp i'm kinda relieved it's over tho i'm nort confident enuff i'll get a D fer passing grade. but i'm still grateful it's over. gonna pull up my socks and buck up b4 it's too late. I'm left with 1 more mth to study. As for the coming wed, i'm havin my pyscho test. ddarn.... wanna be a pyschologist ? ask mee... feeling pyschotic alrdy. better read thru de notes, tho half the time in the lect hall i'm fall`g asleep, dun ask me y. I'm jux plain lazy. hahas. seriously, it' has nth to do with the teacher's tokin. at least he's nort lk andy who'll bring ya to lalala land. Thomas lects are alwaes funny and full of interesting things, just dat, most of de time i'm nort in the right mood to hear. lols. And fer the other 1/2 of the time i was attentively listening n luffing at his jokes tho it sounds abit lame. I truly appreciate his effort , unlike mr alan's one hahas. alriite. now rushin thru my ica slides, i'm finding tat it's abit too wordie. gonna head sch soon to discuss the ica proj. i now pinning high hopes fer tis proj. it's kind of a dry topic and there's nth much to sae except bout the facts of the drugs. siighs. drugs?? awww... alrite n worst of all... i haven read thru my pyscho notes which i tut i'll read it lk ystd. hahas. i was occupyin my time wiith the desperate housewives, it realli lighten down my mood despite havin those tests blues goiin on. gees.. haven had sucha gd luff fer so long.....hmmphs. life's hectic. becas u made me to. but i annouced ure' outta of my life! freeak out dude!

8:25 AM

seriously...
i thk todae's a realli fantastic dae.. tho i missed my archery lessons. duuhx... i dun wish ta go too. i rather stay longer wit the nanyang kids. cute and full of mischiefs..hahas.. de nature of de kids, lols but i still hab de upper hand to handle dem. duuhs..no kids can run away from my clutches..lols. kkays, went to ecp wit the kids, played beach ball. I was kinda amused by the fact dart dere's tis kid who wears an ultra big bb polo shirt tho he's punie..lols. it's as if he's wearing a dress outfit, to rub more salt onto de wound...he actualli wore tis BIG khaki!! lols which in turn looks lk a track pant..awww...can't stand dem...dey brightens my dae.. thanx ding yao fer inviting me. hees..
i missed my archery as mentioned. can't help it. i was tooo engrossed cycling wit kids and luffing wiit dem dart i missed de timing fer my archery by the time wen i rush down in a cab. it's alrdy 1. i'm lk late fer 1 hr. lols. to be moree exact. 55mins hahaas. i n yvonne was lk. missed? alrite lor hahahas...see how bo chap r we ? lols. so it truly shows how dis-interested we r. neways, we actualli spotted a grp dere, n as i guessed dey mite be de archery class. darrn. wasted my 10 bucks hopin to learn some archery skills which ish held at bbhq.. i wasn't realli enthu in goin forward to ask if dey're actualli de archery class. so i gave up. hahas. in de end, it turned out dey're realli havin de archery class. alrite i skipped it. n had lunch wit ding yao n meril.lols.
went home and changed, met up wit chun meng and studied anp. his teaching skills is commendable.lols. good explanation. thanx fer givin up time to teach me. appreciate it truly. i covered roughly 2 topics, respiratory anp and cardio 1/2 way thru i'm nort gonna study ltr on. as wad my pyscho teacher said... aft studyin sleep.. so ya can rmb better. cas it process the info into ya brains. hahas... i'm giving an excuse fer myself to slp...lols. =)

11:37 PM

it's been eons since i last slept well. i've been realli super busy wit my things. esp tryin to occupied my time wit valuable things done. after da camp, i learnt tat being a leader ish nort bout tryin to alwaes gif commands, it's to learn n try to listen n accept peps views. i dun realli loorve da camp, i thk it's de lousiest camp i attended so far.. it' can't be compared at all. lousy coordination. bad games. de onli thing dat i appreciate bout the whole camp ish dart i've got to noe moree nursing frens from diff lect grps. meaning i got moreee frens. isn't it great by tryiin tis path to widen my circle of frens? neways, i got leadership spotted by the mentors. and i'm asked to join the nxt comin mentorship camp. i agreed neways...no harm yar ?
and now i hafta start muggin anp becas i haven even had time studyin... spasteek...hmmphs. i'm been tryin to slack n bum ard n procrastinate wheneva i hab de time. darrn. tis isn't realli de rite way yar ? raah!! madness.. clinical test ish on mon n i'm realli freakiin out becas of de no. of failures and how strict the lecturers can get. i cant fail. cas i noe i wun. hees. now i'm tryiin realli hard to study without the knowledge i've learnt in class. therotically it means, i've neva been payin attention. ~screeams~ hmmphs... currently tryin realli hard to search fer anp animations hopefully i understand better wit all those videos. seriously, i'm better at understanding videos den lookin straight into the book hopin i culd understand all de concepts inside.
n yar...finally i've let goo of him. deleted wit a click n blocked him away from my life. he found his ger. and tho i can't admit i've lk realli ....forgotten bout him. but i'm happy fer him at least. haas. ironic isnt it ? lols. kkays jux wish he neva cross my life agaiin n i'll neva nd to stepped into his life agaiin.

11:05 PM

kkays i'm darn happi tat i'm safe back to sg.. my diving trip ended. n it's sucha good experience fer me. agaain as usual i loorve to sae, i almost dieded. hahas.
pular aur it's such a haven fer divers . evrywhere, u onli get to see divers ard. de place was breath-taking. nort to mention de water ish crystal clear.de pristine beaches. i adore de place! so mcuh so dat i wanna return dere agaiin!! hees.
my instructor commented dat i wasn't havin enuff of water confidence dat leads to me... beiin soo retarded wen i'm in da water. de 1st dive wasn't a very encouraging one. i can't enter inside. becas of de water pressure i can't seems to equalize de pressure in my ears, n therefore i hafta abort tis 1st dive. i was hating myself fer nort beiin able to get in despite a no. of tries. siighs. all my frens r inside alrdy. i envy dem ahahs fer meetin sea creatures. but it's alrite. dere's still lk 4 more dives. so i was kinda relieved. it's nort as if its onli 1 dive hahas. i shared a room wit my frens. n de basin tap n flush ish spoilt. can't blif it. but at least de air-con is werking hahas.
2nd dive was a training, relieving all de skills we learnt in da sea, n i manged to finish all. best... i' learnt how to equalise de pressure. hees. was darn happi, de 1st impression of da sea was tat' it's soo mystical inside. wonderful , no words can realli describe prefectly bout the sea...hees
subsequently, preparing the equipments n stuffs, was alot easier, i was moreee... use to it.
i'm beginning to try to build up my water confidence. i got to meet up wit nemo n his house.. hees. n i was lucky dat i wasn't bitten by tis titan triggerfish, n also lung expansion. i lost my team-mates n floated up eventualy lucky it's lk nort deep enuff. at dat moment i tut i'll die.. but yar. aft floated up ta the surface, in front of me was a blue vast ocean n nth else. i almost cried out. lucky de boat saw me n brought me up, b4 dat i was tryin really hard to fin myself away frm the rocks. hated de current. dey saw alot of wonderful, mystical stuffs..hees. siighs. but i'm happy afterall.

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