.:happily ever after ?? God my forever:.

kkays. rite now i'm bloggin at 5.44pm. gonna head to pula aur fer my open water soon. hopee evrythin turn out well. and dat i can see the marine fishes...hmmps. see ya guys take losta caress..hahahas....

5:43 PM

wad a good diet i had todae..hmmphs ice-cream fer dinner sounds realli weird rite?? hahas. indeed it's weird! who de hack on earth wuld consume ice-creaam fer dinner , except chantille. lols. had haagen dazs buffet wiit fang and yun such a superb day we had. we chatted and took endless shots of us eatin ice-cream. theres' green tea, lychee , raspberry sorbet , midnite cookies and cream.. and the list goes on.... hmmps.. now at least i dun feel realli bloated. hees. tmr i'll be heading to aur. kiinda excited. i'm also lookin forward fer my mentorship camp. hectic schedule yer?? haas... siighs so hw hab u been ?? hmmphs... life's as exciting as mine ?

11:49 PM

alrite. guys sorry tat it' slipped my mind dat i've forgotten to mention tis realli big thin dat happened ystd. hahas. news flash fer da day.. chantille almsot died ystd. heyys it's true. i almost drown myself to death duriin my pool session. siighs lousy me ? feels so rotten hahas. neways i'm alwaes paired up wiit instructor joshua hahas. mayb he can't realli stand to stop worryin fer me. cas i'm too blur!! hahas. yeps was practising de out of breath exercise n we're suppose to swim a distance to our buddy b4 sharing his octopus..hahas.. alrite n we're suppose to signal to dem once we're dere dat we're out of air. yeps and by the time i reached there...i was alrdy out of breath..!! n i signal 1/2 of de steps to him. i was alrdy lk heyss where's my oxygen!! [screaams] i'm outta breath!! i tut i'll faint in no time n i was hopin i culd stand up to reach fer air buts.. i'm in de deeper pool.. so i can't stand up fer fresh air and even if i'm to swim up to the surface i suppose i hafta no time n no energy to do tat. i'll faint immediately. drowning myself. so wen i got hold of the octopus. i was alrdy stuggling.. i purge the water out and grasp it as if it's my life... held onto it tightly.. and breathe really hard fer oxygen... i grabbed onto joshua's hands n he ensure me it's alriite... breathe fer a no. of times inhaling in..and exhaling. i felt realli much better... thanks..=) hees. so i almost lost my life. but i picked it up. mayb it's nort my time yet hahas.. god bless ;p

10:29 PM

wow! i'm feeling fabulous! hees. i loorve de feeling of floating 0 gravity in de water. feels like i''m flyiin...!! hee's but i'm jux havin de after effect haviin stucky-nose! grr... neways, at least i got my skills rite n yeps kiinda quick too, tho i admit i ain't the best. i know at least wad i'm doiin n i hab moree confidence in doiin those skills in the water. hurray! tat's de wonderful part bout evrrythin. had my dinner cum supper at some HV coffee shop.. i'm craziee over the xo fish been hoon darrn delicious....a better word scrumptious meal! brrp! hees' alrite i'm sooo overwhelmed by my ability to learn things dat i'm soo nort tired rite now. sooo zero kewl ritee? i betcha dat it mite be me breathing in too much of compressed air feeling soo refresh now... actualli it realli sounds kiinda contradict lar. lk the past blog i've mentioned, breathing compressed air makes me sick and ya wadeva. but now!! hahas i'm gettin really use to it. and the most stupendous fact by evrthin is tat i'm alrdy veery enthusiatic bout meetin my nemo fish...yeeaas!! and nort to forget to mention i'm 1 step closer to my new freens. yeahhooo!!... wad a meaningful day i had!

1:34 AM

currently experiencing de world's most rotten feeling. tmr ish de presentation day at BB hq and yar sad to sae no one ish comin to support me. siighs. i dun feel happy. i loathe de way how's my life ish. no one kaires. neways, dat's my lifee.. who's to kaire ? i betcha no one ish gonna kaire. if i choose to smoke, drink tt's moi life? i' chose it.
it's been eon yrs since i opened my txtbook n i definitely has tis uncanny prograstinator dat i'm gonna fail my nursing course. siighs absoutely nuts!. my schedule ish crammed wiit camps, diving trips n meetin up wit frens. seriously, i condemned myself wit no studyin world. xcept fer reading novels. tsktsk.
hurr`tat was't the actualli planned schedule.siighs. hopefully evrything falls into place. as far as i'm concern, i presume i'm more worried bout my studies. esp anatomy & physiology compared to other stuffs in my life. siighs actualli i'm more antsy bout my family probs. kiinda distressed haviin to settle evrythin.

12:21 AM

siighs totally completely drained...
and i still choose to come online to blog my stuffs. farnni...!
alriite now i'm feelin abit of weird.. i seemed to suffer frm hypoventilation
till now i still thiink dat i hab nort inhale enuff fresh aiir. isst becas i inhaled too much of compressed air frm the tank n i can't get use to iit ? ?
hmmps. siighs i thk i'm a lousy student...slow learner. gosh can't blif it...
grrr evry1 seems to understand de instructions n i'm alwaes de one who will be soo blur.
todae pool session was quite alrite which i shan't comment it as terrible. i wasn't realli payiin my 100% attention to de instructor.ish nort dat i choose nort to. budden it's jux dat i jux can't force myself to gif 100% attention mayb aft haviin goiin thru a long day. i'm abit worn out alrdy.
now my throat feels kiinda parche. grrr.zz.. chest abit of paiin.daarn!!
oouch.alriite shan't rant bout sucha stuffs. actualli kiinda happi dat i've gone thru the training session and tat alrite.shld i be happy too bout the fact tat de' test is postponed agaiin !! grr..alriite waddeva. can't we jux lk get over wiit it asap?? neways had a new student who joined us todae. he's from nyp too. hurray. but we sounded soo strangers. hmmps mayb de intro wasn't realli gr8. realli nd soome ice-breaker. grr he's my buddy n i seem to somehow involved hiim into my own trouble. haviin troubles wiit clearing my mask n balaah.. sounds so bromidic rite? alrte i'm sucha blur sotong. mayb hafta spot a sotong in de sea n see how blur are dey. hmmps who wuld win de most blur sotong ?? zzzz my nxt pool session wuld be on de comin mon! n follow on by my test. wish my luck n pray hard i'll be able to clear my mask in an expert and calm way inhale n exhale outta in de rite way from the mouth. or else my mask will be flooded wiit water agaiin. and hopefully... evrythin goes smoothly. praaaay...

12:48 AM

yeps. tmr ish ica presentation at last i've rush thru the reports.
now feeling kiinda busy, hafta finish my drug card n i also need to revise thru my scuba theory. tmr will be a darn tiring day fer me i betcha! cas, aq training starting agaiin siighs. i bet i'll get muscle strains agaiin. but i thk i can lk try to get away from strenous exercise cas de followin dae i'll be haviin my pool session at dover..wooow!! .. neways my test will be on dat dae too. pray fer my to pass. kkays n next week i'll be haviin my practical test, wound dressin and dispensing of medicines. `gaaa... sooo packed..uggh i can't breathe!! ..
i forsee my attachment will start real soon and i hab tis uncanny prograstinator dat i mite flunk my bio if i still choose nort to open the book n revise thru! siighs. how bad can iit be ? studyiin heart and respiratory systems, blah blah blah...zzzzzZZ.
allrite. i better start doiin somethiin n get myself more organized b4 i start complaining dat i hab nort enuff time fer everythin.
thanx fer acting lk u dun kaire. =p

11:29 PM

it's jux another monday. but it mite be abit moree special to other peps.
alrite. hafta admit it's valentines' day agaiin. 14feb. siighs .
but i'm nort dulling over sucha dae. i've actualli spend my dae well. n i thk phew~~ at last it's over..hahas. i finally caught constantine , nice movie tho i bought the 2nd row front seats[seriously i hatee watchin movie dat r soo near to da darn screen]. worth it. spend de dae wiit my sec sch freens. come to thk of iit. i shan't feel sad bout beiing single.. after all it' seems dat evry one dat i knw r still single. hahas. if the time ish nort right den wad fer rush into a r/s wen u knw it's not gonna werk ? lolx.
kkaes. too much n soo much of de comments bout beiing single.
ive spend moi new yr visits wisely. been tryiin to make myself moree occupied instead of slackiin ard n doiin nth. chicken's chalet was kewl. even tho we r lk jux tryiin to gamble our time off n eatin n chattin non-stop but i still loorve it esp wen i nd nort spend it alonee.. hahas. do u raelli get de pt? i hatee beiin alone. tt's all lar. but seriously i dun loorve gambling n now u understand y i'm nort a risk-taker. i'm nort cut to try stuffs dat i know dat i'm gonna lose. i dun gamble. siighs tt' mite explain y i achieve so lil in lifee too. yer. i din gamble except the time wen i'm in yf's hse. i gambled away 7 bucks n i realised i dun haf de luck wiit me. so i stop gambling or else i'll gamble all my ang bao money away. hahass...
i'm gonna use wisely, as usual my parents contributed the most fer my ang bao money. n i was thking to use de money to get myself a new hp, some facial products and some cosmetics. n yer forget to mention, a CLUTCH. hahas..
woow something slip off. hmms.. my taka voucher..hahas. was thkiing of wad to buy wiit it hee. so happy see moree stuffs agaiin ?? yeer..!! i can splurge on myself.n it means, since i dun hafta a bf to loorve, mux well loorve myself more. cas i'm gonna adore myself! hahaas.

11:29 PM

kaes . now i'm feelin abit better aft vomiting 4 times ystd. feeling abit bored. n sick of tryin to open explorer a no. of times before suceeding entering without havin any errors. my schedule is packed fer the nxt few hrs. n tho i'm meetin my frens to play pool at 1pm i'm still sitting down here comfortably typing something. thankfully ive started my diving theory lessons, evry1 was fun to be wiit. esp my instructor. i'm abit retarded wen it comes to studyin.tryiin to squeeze in new things into my alrdy .. squeezed brains. hopefully, i wun go craziee. yep. will be haviin lessons ltr on. n best of all my theory test. abit speedy wiit my theory, but it also means. faster shortest time to start my open waters. i'm feeling abit nervous wiit test. hab tis phobia of nort passin, heya not dat i'm stupid or lazy. hahas. somtimes i jux dun understand how my brain werks. tt's lk soo bad. siighs.
feeling realli glad dat i've catcha wiit all my relatives, played de lamest games wiit dem ystd n it realli jelled us up. kool. hahas. all of dem had changed. fer the better.=) prettier n handsome. babes n hunks. hahas i noe i'm abit of exaggerated but fine. tat's moree of de clearer vision hahas. wad's wiit me. alrite. newaes jux finished watchin de improvised cinderalla version. kewls. i loorve it ta de bits. esp chad michael murray. dat's a hunk! cutiee.. hahas. so much of a dreeam fer hilary duff. wen's it's gonna be my turn ? gaa...hh.. hahas.

12:24 PM

new yr is arriving.n i don't hab much anticipation over it. nort tat i hate new yr or somethiin but i jux dun feel eager in lookin-forward to it but i'm delighted bout` de fact dat i hab ang baos to collect n thus more money to splurge on shoppin.[beams]
I'm missin some1, soo much so dat i'm crazy. utterly mad..someone dat is realli dear to me. i loorve hiim but i noe i can't reciprocate siighs. And now someone dear to me ish somehow drifting further away from me. I just can't describe wad i'm feeling exactly. But to be more precise... the someone seems to neglect me. The one tut that by givin us enuff money wuld replace de times one wun be spending on us. siighs dat's isst de fact.to tell ya , i realli hate it.
neways i can't kaire much bout it. tat's one life. i hab no rites to interfere nor to interrogate. if one thks dat one noes wad one ish doiin. let it be.
right now i jux wanna set my piorities rite. studies, dreams.
neways aft reading a mag bout the rite time to date. i was thkin. if any1 wasn't realli prepared or commited to a r/s mayb it's becas ya're nt ready. n y start a r/s ,den ??
eager or peer pressure from frens? either or neither one ? i don't fall into any categories. but aft much tuts. i thk i'm moree of de finding some1 to caree fer me. n dat's definitely a selfish tut. i'm lonely. tat's all. absurd! tis r excuses fer me to fall into a r/s . now i realise i m darrn wrong. i shan't be havin such tuts. i dun't seem to be commited. try thking bout it, i wuldn't wanna sacrifice my time fer r/s wen i thk i'm alrdy packed in my schedule. the endless learnings. studyin n coping wiit stress. frens n more frens. r/s just has to stand aside fer de time beiing. i'm not willing to squeeze in moree time. so fer now. wanna concentrate on other stuffs.
r/s ish de below my list. n mayb i can sae fer the time beiing i haven met de one who's willing to spend the rest of his lifee wiit me. absoutelymadness. fancy havin such an idea at the age of 17+ wen i still hab a long way to go. siighs wun one feels tired aft so much of a failed r/s ?? so much of the distrust of humans..lovin someone over agaiin. sayin yes i loorve ya to so many diff peps. do i realli loorve dem or izt i'm obliged to sae it becas i hab to sae it or i truly loorve dem? is dis a phase of life u shld hab gone thru to grow or avoided to be hurt?wad's de true definition of loorve? i'm ignorant.

3:33 PM

i was overjoyed bout the fact tat my scuba diving lessons ish commencing soon. hurray!!
neways todae ish de 3rd tiime spottin a mediacorp artiste in town wiit hueiping. hahas..

1:24 AM

i slept thru-out the journey while i'm goiin home.i felt extremely tired. siighs. feelin realli void. i've nth to blog at all yet i'm here typiin some nonsensical rubbish out of nothiin. kkaes i'll jux blog wadeva dat came into my mind. now i'm hearing tis 2be3-even if. sounds kiinda nice, light-hearted. loorve de song. blending into da mood of light-heartedness. i've tis yiiky feeling rite nw! rite now...!! i'm sickk..yukcs haven been haviin such feeling fer a realli long time. n now it's finally back. i....i'm gonna be sick! siighs. i dun wanna be sick it makes me look realli dull. n worst new yr ish arriving n dat means.. i hafta recover frm my illness or i'll go ard lookin realli sick ! siighs.
enuff of all these craps. todae's sch was alriite nth unusal happened except fer hearing some stuffs bout tis guy n suddenly i rmbed tat my pri sch fren mentioned bout hiis name b4. oOps..such a coincidence. n i tot y nort try findin out who he is. hahas.. never did i expect dat he's in my lect hall all along! siighs sounds realli ironical . i suppose he's nort in my class n i asked ard the other lect grps to keep a watch out. sounds darrn despo to dem ... but i'm nort! i'm just desperately curious. some acs guy. darrn hahas.. hopee he's nort readiin it. but i bet he wun be comiin to my blog. how on da hell he wuld visit my blog riite? hahass..

10:07 PM

incredible. unbelievable.
i jux reached hm...
n best.. i'm nt feeling slpy at all despite of me complaning i had nt enuff SLP!!
hahass..
mayb i realli luff too mcuh.
i super enjoy de time wen i'm wiit yangfong.chicken.sharon
hahass..been luffing non-stop. suuper craziness
it's been eon years since i've felt soo happy.
siighs life isn't soo wonderful but at least i hab my freens to accompany me thru de darkest of life.
wow i'm jux doubting my pool skills. i seemed to improve alot even tho i've nort been playiin fer lk a verry long tiime. my freens praise dat i've improve. `giggles
kkaes..yf has been pickin on me de moment i met hiim todae.. haha but bickering wiit him ish interesting..it makes me luff even fer the moost simplest thing he said dat's nt exactly funny.
overall - i felt my dae has nort been wasted playiin pool instead of tryiin to slp moree. but now i'm feeling de aftermath of nort slpiin enuff.
i better get goiin. i jux rmbed tmr ish a hell dae agaiin hafta run endless rounds.i'm prayiin so hard dat dere's no training but i wanna win . n how can i skipped n pray fer no tranings?? darrn!

1:00 AM

bloggie i'm bacck..
these few days r realli hectic. soo drained..siighs
haven been haviin enuff slp. lack of sleep = exhausted.
ystd i slept at 4am just to finish up my ica bout' wound healing.
now i hab a better understandin bout thoose wound dressings aft readiin thru fer daes.
kiinda worth it.=)
n my efforts hab not been wasted. teacher saes it's nicely donee..phew!!
recently had sentosa outin wiit primers..
kiinda successful. soo cheers comittee. ger power.
lol.
my facee seems to be realli dry. my skiin ish flakin.
grrr.. i hatee peeling skiin. yiikes the color of my skiin will goo off..
n den i'll look whiitee agaiin. i dun lk it!
hahas.. so it means moree tan. n moree investment in a gd moisturizer fer my facee..!
biotherm seems to be a realli gd brand fer hydrating my skiin n mayb h20.
hahass.. spendiin money agaiin.
went orchard on fri n it was lk wow! lots lots of peps.
went to purchase tis bikini hmm not bad..=)
i saw chun meng's freen.strawberry. n she lent me her discount card. wowaa...15% le.
hahas.. save me a few bucks...!!
thanx=)
now i'm still haviin de shoppin fever.stayiin in orchard fer long ,means. i'll be broke.
deree's jux endless stuffs fer me to purchase.
more roxy goods, more shoes , more zara's shirts , skirts n de list jux continues...
n my mommy finally agreed to gimi moree money ..!1 hahas
muaacks.
n i bought a red n white combination jacket n tat's de last piece..!! hahas.. i realli loorve iit.
my lil sista bought lots of clothes. zara's shirts n topshops ` tops. hahass..
shoppin fever.
new year madness..
hopefully i'll be able to reach hm tonite to hab a gd rest..
but... my freen jux asked me to join dem fer pool. siighs will decide aft sch. =p

2:39 PM