the endless naggings and rantings.
like i wasn't doing anything. i had enough of evrything and im very suffocated. what can i do? i can't do anything what! i know nuthing. and u all keep pushing me.
WHAT'S ALL THIS SHIT!
seriously annoyed. CAN I JUST RUNAWAY!
i dun wanna stay in sg. get me a tix. i wanna migrate to aust.
where all my problems and leave my identity HERE!
i hate EVRYTHING!
9:22 PM
Merry Christmas Folks! =))
7:08 PM
my goodness can u believe it. im only 19! and this quiz claims that im 23! hilarious... sooo mature. =)) im unhappy and happy.
| You Are 23 Years Old |
 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
10:26 AM
My Merry Christmas Present from my fren. =) sooo PRETTY rites!!11:14 PM
i've got nothing to say;
nothing much to blog...
well, life's very peaceful now, except im more geared to being a better student,staff nurse. =))
anyway,
xmas is coming... i dun really have the mood for xmas. i dunno why.
i just hope i got MORE MORE presents. anyone?? =)
i wan lots of stuffs.
1. free spa
2. a cute part dress
3. guess wallet.
4. roxy biki or 3dots
5. BUFFET!
6. a kate spade handbag
7. a pretty cool school bag.
8. TNS microderma scrub
9. clarins power jerise
10. I WANNA GO BK!
okas done. none can be fufil anyways ive chosen my route of future.
1.ed -emergency
2.ot-operating theatre
3.oncology!
well, i think this attachment has been the most memorable one! ive gotten to knw alot more staff. my future colleagues. GOOD RAPPORT.
im totally loving it.
this xmas... where shld i place myself? =(
10:32 PM
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all
I want It's to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
My dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else can tell that
I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used to be's
And once upon a song
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling and I didn't mind
Because I liked the view
Ooooh hoo hoo hoo hoo... I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
5:47 PM
im having terrible
MOOD SWINGS...=(7:00 PM
hehs! finally start my ward attachment. the pace is so much slower. compared to ed and ot. hahas... i find that im working alot faster inside too. wherease the pace is so much slower. i tend to slow down abit to suit the pace.
but all's good. that ward is a goodie ward. ive been to many postings. and well, this ward was the 1st posting i went for my attachment. now im back here again.
hahahs! evryone recognise me, miraclously. i tut they'll forget me, becas im such a small pea. lols! still, it's good i haven gotten the time to write down my pts info. fear not ive written a few. knw a lil at least. gonna research. eat , watch tv and REST!
i need ample sleep time. i haven been resting well, and i think im gonna faint anytime.
to be exact i wud not be working there for 2 weeks. instead i'll be there for SEVEN DAYS! viiola! hahas- HSE HSE!! save my time. nxt week gonna be a breeze.
and back to school. HURRAYS!!... i miss my poly mates! ;p
6:32 PM
indeed im doubly blessed by today's msg by pst.
am very very happy. yups! i don't live in any eastern or western culture.
i live in God's Heaven culture !! =))
if you never try you'll never know if you're up to it.
always work hard. becas genius is only 1% inspiration & 99% pespiration.
so pls dun keep giving excuses of not working hard and being a couch potato waiting for God's blessings to pour upon you.
Sorry! definitely no. God wans you to work hard for things which is within your reach. those out of reach, God will do miracles.
have been very drained and burn out for these few days...
been having attachments, and then no time for shopping.
had an xmas party at nsrc. was great soo damn retro nite.
stayed over and gotta rush for a dance performance the next day, unfortunately, the next day when we're about to check out the keys were missing.
they were so tired, my dear frens brought it home with them to safe keep HAHAS!!
sighs, i forfeited the dance competition performance and went for service instead.anways i wanted to serve tmr.
tmr's gonna be early.
my eyes are weak, my limbs are jelly. im gonna bathe and sleep.
next week is geron. for 2 weeks im only gonna work 7 days! God bless for hols.
and xmas!! =))
i wanna go bangkok in jan. anyone? ;p
1:13 AM
i wanna hide my feelings. but i cudn't someone mentioned your name yet again.
i might be missing you.
9:16 PM
short and sweet posting-
ystd OT was very fun. im loving it. i love ortho especially... the cases are so interesting you'll never fall asleep watching it. i can stand there for hours without even thinking of my break time. wherease my SN will keep asking me" ger when are u going for your break?" im like okok, i'll tell u when im going. i'll just stay inside. hahas- now this shows my enthusiatic attitude of stayin in and watching it.
i love the staff there. especially evryone! =) they're so kind so nice, they teach and am sooo friendly..
anyways they were so kind, they allow me to scrub in the last OP! i was somehow a calefare. to be frank! hahas- it's a triple scrub! cool rites?? lols!!
and i left early becas i got to pick up sth from my fren. still i hope to see my SN again tmr in major OT. no time to thank them at all. i left in a hurry becas all of them are still in the midst of doing the OP!=)
and i forgot to add, the sales pp there are so damn frendly, and i even chat wit them. alrites! =))
today, i was in DSOT. i scrubbed in for almost evry available case they have for that OR. hahas- hilarious. the 1st time, they treated me like a small fool, ask me to stand at the stupid lead board for almsot the whole sugery, and i was SCRUBBED!! --uughs.
but overall was still good. the last few surgeries even it's a double scrub, my SN kinda trust me, can u believe it? she was talking, while i was assisting. now that's wad i say she really trust my ability hahahs! but im damn happy larhs! but she marked me down. okas. nvms.
but she's damn NICE! =))
still love evryone from the OT! and even the surgeons are nice peeps. they joke and laughed, and they ON MUSIC. jsut like the usual tv programmes on surgeons doing operation.
oh and i realise most of them love 90.5fm. NICE CLASSIC songs i believe... heehees..!!
im beginning to put a thought about OT! =)
9:07 PM
something to update.
today was 1st day in OT. experience was kinda so-so. because ive went there before, once. during o&g posting. and im back there again... saw a no. of cases.
But God's grace is always never insufficient. God's favour was upon me. my buddy was so kind. she actually forfeited the fact that she cud scrub in for one simple op case. she gave it up to me. Thanks ger, -partly becas, hahas- she knws why, im not sayin... =))
anyways am glad i scrubbed in. the feeling is totally different from standing at one side silently observing the operation. -to be very honest, i almost fall asleep. becas it was kinda boring, and the right cooling temperature makes you sleepy. lols!!
still after scrubbing in, it makes me more motivated to read more becas of my inadequacy of knowledge and feeling in-effeciency that gave me the drive to study.
anyways, i've learnt something today- don't talk so much when you work, do more then you talk becas when you talk more you make more obvious mistakes compared to doing more.
i recognised a dr as a nurse.- VERY HILARIOUS.
the next time round, my 1st qns wud be- hi, how wud you like me to address you?
very kind enuff..=))
s.c.r.u.b.s
11:46 PM
ended my ER posting! definitely an eye-opening experience. =)
still im in a dilema. sighs.
nwaes, im very tired. slept thruout d day. and didnt go out. wasted my nite didnt gotten grey's damn! ;p
ive forgotten wad i wanted to post.
9:25 PM
show some compassion please ms!don't treat them so inhumane. as if, doing some experiment.imagine 8 of them; and im refering to 8! standing right in front of the pt. grabbing him. ; looks as if he's some nuts. needed to be restrained by SOO MANY of you. can all of you just give some space. and find other pts at least. thank you! i know it's hard being a ms. but at least be a nice compassion one. respect them with dignity. Thanks!it pains me seeing it, and well pls remove torniquet AFTER SETTING A PLUG! at LEAST!sickening. you know. you sounds like a vampire sucking pts blood.and well, be a good one, basic steps like remembering to remove torniquet. put a teagerdemand date is kindly appreciated. and please clean up the mess you created. =) we' aren't ur maids. (:
10:53 PM
recently, im kinda force on whether shld i start my working career in this particular hospital, tough to make a decision, even the discipline im interested in. rather confuse.
as a student nurse, times are always not as easy as you think.
your seniors might just love to bully you. -these are plain sadist.
and some are really nice to you yet backstabbed you inside out. - well they're very cunning. they might have some ulterior motive for doing this.
but what i think seniors shld give, is a lil respect in our lil contributions even tho we're still learning as a student.
i dun wanna maglin all the senior nurses. yes i do agree some of them are very nice to you. and tat's the pure nice, they really treat you like how they feel inside. at least they dun go around backstabbing.
ive met those people and i wud say they're really nice working people. who makes nice partnership. and of course mentors.
i always think that attachment plays a very big part in your joy of becoming a better future nurse. mugging too much doesn't brings u far. but, ur eq brings you to a far status in your nursing career. it's all about teamwork. and nice people working tgt. understanding one another's weaknesses and strengths.
we shall not sulk on one other's weakness and start blaming that we can't cooperate well.
teach us something. - in the future we'll still gonna pass out as a nurse. working side by side with you as a colleague.
so students are also impt. that drafts out the future generation attitude of the future nurses. those mentors who has been teaching us greatly during our posting. will definitely leave a great impression in our hearts and mind. who inspired us to be a much better nurse.
you all do make a difference.
for the sake of the society, treat us with care. =)
10:50 AM
spare a lil time to update.
anyways, triage is very cool, and i realised the importance of it =)
im getting to love ed more n more.
had career fair talk. and somehow felt kinda force to make a decision for my wards for prcp. hope God give me wisdom and anointing of the HS, to guide me to make a right decision. (:
Praise God for healing. had flu early in the morn but went off the moment i am on my way to work. Praise God for medicine too.
had a fun time communicating with the nice lovely staff.
10:27 PM
yesh. im gonna post a short n sweet one. just becas im kinda tired. and my lil feet is now getting well. the swell is still prominent as usual. and the color changed from green to RED. goodness. maybe it's sign of healing. shld be more positive.
1st day in ed. and im alrdy appointed to the P1 triage. well, if u all didnt knw, i'll brief a lil. P1 is the priorty 1 room. with emergency care and emergency medicine and equipments all ard.
anyway, ive a dejavu when i was inside. =( i felt that i was there before. hrrmphs yup i think i was there before. sighs....
nwaes, was kinda a shock to me to be inside. resus and then emedicine. all fast n quick. there's not even time for u to think. vital signs are very crucial. 1 resus today.
and i didnt mention. it's totally opp from the ward settings. for ward a day shift wud be rather busy to keep u occupy but a day shift in ed is manageable.
but for, aftnoon. and esp mondays aftnoon! it's packed with humans. hahas-
well, exceptional. TODAY is extra busy!!! even SN claims that they've never seen such a busy day. what happen huh?? maybe it's a monday and u see it's coming to the end of 2006. that' explains a lil to the query of the packed humans today.
and, im very tired. my feet haven been resting. im off to watch show and den sleep =)
beauty sleep is impt tmr is triage area.
i'm beginning to LOVE alot more for ed, the care is so much diff compared to the ward settings.
let me love you ;p
10:49 PM
sighs!
attachment starts tmr. AGAIN! uggghs... well, sometimes i do really miss the times in the hospital doing my attachment. now when it's tmr, i dreaded it ALOT! =(
emergency department. hope i see more interesting wow cases. =)
im sleeping.
Praise God for afternoon shift. heehees im gonna be a haggard woman. attachment kills my personal time,
12:05 AM
