Late at night, when the day fall...and when it's much more closer to 2008.i fear the day it falls... i fear the date coming so much closer to me.in fact; such an impact.i FEAR.no much anticipation i hafta admit.then once again...what's so great bout 2008.Does it means everything will be better?*alright im going to be so cynical.don't read if you hope for a great 2008.My heart has such a heavy load of metal.stung by needles.i couldnt let it off.does it even matter to me now that it's 2008.Reflecting thru the days...i saw a lil glimmering light.and then it left me somehow, yes unknowingly...i feel that life's "just like that"vague as how it's phrase.cant elaborate exactly too.deep in my thoughts i yearn for more.but what's more then a peaceful mind a focus dream...what will it be like in 2008 compared to a wasted 2007.my wasteful experiences - oh now im being very contradicting.experience is never wasteful. logically.everyday after knockoff.i hope for rest day to jump straight right in.everyday when rest days are here.i stared blankly in space. thinking what shld be more?then i seriously wasted evry secs of my life.wasn't it bad enough...a new year i shld be flying off in a jet plane for a start of a kind of fresh air.maybe awhile.please Lord just awhile away.o' tho be fine.i put a bravefront.but i'm not.i wanan cry.but i won'ti pulled my blankets to sleep. thinking what's another daythen i sleep through the night. hoping for something more.what's in my heart.a longing for something far.when will i seriously say im sure.times when i fall. i pick myself up again.i smile. cas i need to.i wanna frown and breakdown.in front of you.i'm not who you think i am.i'm someone Better...
2:44 AM
It's a little too late.
But Merry Christmas Folks! (:
i love everyone!!! it's a time of giving...
but im sorry for not giving at all. but u all;
still understands i totally love all of you!
deep down in my <3
sighs : just abit cranky becas of the huge crowd.
and the last mins crazy buys.
im a lil tired.
i own all of you a pressie ):
forgive me i'm just plain exhausted.
and seriously. i hate CROWDS!!
i totally couldn't stand the squeezings and the snaking thru.
give me a break!!
okays; looking at another point.
i love the xmas lightings in orchard!
one of my fren claims " u see these lights, well it signifies how well our economic is" truly.AGREE!
don't yoU?
at a lighter note.
i spent counting down in bedok market for supper.
and as usual ; everyone will knw.
i' went down for party. @mos.
"i missed you in zouk" - and i really hope i cud be there.
sighs *as what we say fate*
it wasnt fabulous but at least it brings away lonely xmas nites.
staring straight at the computer.
trying to be happy becas of xmas.
anyways service was totally FANTASTIC!
i think xmas @ CHANGS is just too gd to be true. =)
my church amazing as usual.
n george my cgm did a GREAT JOB!
again ; i missed out souls.
sighs.
God i will do better the next time.
1:15 AM
the OCS social night. theme = hollywood.
which i wonder why??!
i saw a no. of peeps wearing jeans.
but almost all wear kinda formal.
pheww!~! im neither here nor there hahas.
so it means super suitable. =)
oh well all the worries.
anyways it was quite bad when we're eating as we hafta queue.
otherwise everything was alright i guess.
the band was so-so.
but my date was nice =)
alright. i saw a no of my frens being officers.
how come the world so small??
and the funniest part ; i only seem to know the guys
but for the partners ( girls) all of them seem so strange to me
urrhgs.. maybe i got more male species frens. HAHAS!
*6 mths to super grand commisioning dinner.
10:36 AM
i'm so devastated.
my graveyard shift has cas me a big deal.
i'm left with a flesh without bones.
- i still have not given up.
i will not! if you're gonna give me all these shit.
i'm not saying i've lost the battle.
i'll show u i'm better.
*Thats' what an overcomer is.
dare you to taunt me in my dreams. casing nitemares.
i dare you to make me fall again.
My Lord will save me.
i will never fail to praise him in bad times.
For a reliever of my day crying.
i went for a calming nite for fishing. left me with joy.
1st time doing it. and definitely more to come =)
Happy fisherwoman of the day!
12:34 PM
tired. one more night. and then comes my 2 rest day.
hit the jackpot recently. count myself "lucky" i hope i will never have a chance to be spotted.
anyway christmas is nearer and i bought some nice gifts for my lil frens. =D
met up wit my poly clique yesterday and it was totally awesome, no doubts!
my day was spent laughing and playing. even my eyes couldnt make it. heavy lids. becas i did a double damn shift. nwaes , side track... i think i contracted LOA = Loss of appetite. damn mans. life without tasty delicious food seems such a boredom.
i need something better. i shall buck up.
be fuller for a better christmas. nwaes, i got this new mindset. "i think im FAT" oops. i might be on a unknowingly diet regime which i dun even realise. gastric is coming to kill meee...ooooh no.
ohs im trying to get annual leave. im oh so leaving to NZ soon. for a fun n stress-free TIME!
God bless me for good bonus for im a faithful giver wheehees!! =D may your words come to pass.
goodbye folks =D
pictures be up wen my fren send me. muahhahs.
9:27 AM
It's christmas time!! and to me i think it's thanksgiving time!! (:
those people i wanna thank.
-mommy
-granny
-fang
-li jun
-peiling
my colleagues
-pohling
-lok kwan
-irene
church frens
-mx
-simon
-jeremy
all i want for christmas
*mp3
*a canon 450d
*coach bag
*shu umera cleansing oil
*a stylo hp
*clarins enery lotion
*stethoscope!!
thats all folks.
Lord i bless for anointing the coming new year! i thank you for seeing me thru safely and thru the big storms. i will survive and be better the next year. a 2008 i want something moree...=D
11:13 PM
OFF!! ooh i'm so addicted to witch yoo hee korean drama!!
currently chasing it. and i think yoo hee is so damn PRETTY!
i wann get the same hairstyle as her!! hahas but i dunno if it suits me. a lil dilema from here.
maybe i should consult someone!! then it's time for a new change. a new look to step into the new year. let me be BRAVE!! hahhaas... show u the pictures. and i love all the male leads except that gong guy lols. i dunno why he's alw meant to act such a lead..*sad. guess he got more potential for a male LEAD! (:
11:06 AM
