wow! todae was disastrous..
i welcomed my dae by wakiin up realli late fer class which i'm supposed to be in sch at 8am for my clinical lab but yar i woke up lk 8.05 am ? `hahas it's nort tat my human alarm ken din called me but it's jux tat i'm too tired i woke up to hear his phone n went back to my lala land agaiin w/o even realising dat i hafta wake up fer my lesson which wuld commence in 2 hrs tiime..! travelling time is realli long, 1 hr fer reachin nyp. darrn. 1/2 hr fer changing.
hahas.. so i took exactly 1/2 an hr to choose my clothes n pack my bag. by den it's alrdy 8.35.
clinical lab lesson ends at 10am so i supposed i mite be able to reach dere at 9am de nxt class. yar but it's alrdy 8.35 lar. how on hell can i reach nyp in 25mins ? impossible!!
so i took de fast route to nyp takin 187 to marsling but b4 boarding de bus i realised i did nort hab enuff coins n therefore i hafta changed wiit the peps at the bus-stop...darrn wad a nice thing dat i encountered.!
somehow i reached ard 9.10 my teacher looks realli mad wen i entered de lab haahs. lucky i've learnt how to do CPR b4 during my 1st aid course so i supposed i nd nort crush into other peps class fer make-up lessons. `giggles.
kkaes my teacher ish corrupted! haahs she demanded me to buy swts fer the whole class becas i'm lk realli realli super late.. n derefore she'll mark my attendance.`sighs. such a teacher still exist hahas..
so i'll skip those long-winded parts n goto anth interesting part of my dae. lolx. my lil sista stole somethiin !! hahas..nah actualli it wasn't her fault n yar to clarify ! she din stole the pack of granola bars! i told her to hold onto it n she happily forget to put it on the counter. n lucky the supermarket has no sensor to detect peps who stole their stuffs .. hahas. onli den aft walkin ard the market we den realised we din pay fer the granola bars! grrr..!!
i wasn't willing to admit dat we actualli forgotten to pay the stuffs. it's all her fault! becas she's wearing her sch uniform or else. i wuld jux bring it home! hahas..evil mee.`
so i went back feeling realli embarassed bout wad happened n apologise fer bringin de stuff outta w/o realising tat we did nort pay fer it. de cashier looked realli confuse but she den took my money n said nth much. hahas.`phew!!

1:11 AM

yar pouring outta all my sorrows. after haviin so much tots bout hiim flashing past my memories. feeling reali happi bout all tat had happened. totally miserable aft slappin myself back ta reality.
i'm hafta face de reality ger..i hafta admit i ain't strong.
mayb fer 1 mth 2 mths or even 1 yr... i won't be able ta forget all tat had happened.
y does our mind werks tis way ..? we rmb the happy n sad memories all together...
smile at da happy n sulk at de sad...
y can't i jux switch it to werk tis way... hold onto the happy memories n throw de sad memories away..
it's absolutely absurd!
i'm actualli missin hiim.
his smiles.
his dunnoes.
his coughs.
his swt nths.
his drummin sessions.
``madness.
fer nw i hafta realise it's over. n fer now i chose to reminisce de past.
facee it bravely. no one can help me thru except myself.

11:47 PM

nice song nice song..
hahas westlife- written in the stars.
`beeams..
tis song ish dedicated to evry1 out dere who loorves me hee..
who kaires fer me. tho it seems to be some couple song. but i suppose it's kkays lar. hahas

yeea..todae havin monday blues..
uggh...feel realli tired havin to wake up early in da morn..
siighs.
but todae time pass real fast...
learnt bandaging.. tho i've learnt it b4 in my 1st aid course. i can't seem to rmb clearly hahas.
mayb becas i'm nt attentive enuff..
mux attend the refresher course..!!

grr.. so as usual nth much happened.
oh yaar.. desperate housewives ish darn funny n niicee. haah but very sensual.. lolx.
dey seem soo desperate jux lk the show title. hahas.
alrite m lookin forward fer the nxt episode. wooarh..!!
neways ystd The Apprentice was gr8!
cas they showcase my fav food! ice-creeam...
the donut ice-creeam seems soo delicious..-droolin
gaa...dun i sound just lk a small kid. giggles..
i wann icee--creeeam..!!
hahas. todae was funy lar. i ate too much ice-creeam n had dirrohea.! darn.

1:32 AM

wooarh it's been daes sincee i last blog ?
yaar, feeling realli pissed off becas of msn!
seems tat i can't sign in. something has cropped up.
uuggh aft askin all of moi frens. none of dem culd sign in too.
i bet something's wrong wiit msn. darn better complain dem hahas.
lousy connection.!! wad's wrong wiit it ??

becas i hab nth to do. i decided to blog .
actualli nth realli amazing ish happening to me.
but i seemed to feel tanner aft my visiting to sentosa twice.consecutively.
phew!.. n yar i jux found outta dat i nd nt pass up my ica proj tis tues.
yar n it means moree time fer me to finish it up.
hahas..
somethiin realli lighten off my load..

neways it seems tat evry1 has found deir partners.
hmmph soo happi fer dem hahs..
but i wun feel sad fer myself tho.
heehes.
comin feb mth i'll be daarn busy..wooarh goiin to scuba diving..!!
i'm loorviin it. hahas..[mac catchy phrase]
den i mite be goiin to redang too...
notice somethin similar bout the both places i'll be visit'g ?
both r beaches..hahahs..
kewl..isn't it ??

siighs can i miss yar ??

11:40 PM

`smiles..
it's realli supeer sweet of ya, junwen!!
i hafta admit ure' realli gd in these java-scripts.umm let me see.
wad ive been up 2 fer de whole dae.
nth realli much happened tho. but i'm realli happi dat i finally got my roxy blouse !
darrrn i'm loving it lotsa. not bout tat it's reaalli very nicee..but it's how i saved up to own it.
usually i dun save money to buy my stuffs.i'll jux ask frm mommy n she'll obliged ! but some reasons mommy ain't allowing me to spend moree den i nd.! recently,she keeps complaining dat i've been wasting money..

it's nt tat i wan u see..i jux can't resist the temptation of buyin those clothes n shoes.i'm tryiin !!
alrite jux sae dat i'm nt tryin real hard! but at least aft nt shoppin fer daes. n restricting myself frm drinking none other den plain water. i've saved up jux enuff fer tat roxy blouse!

kkaes sounds real pathetic.
yaar..exactly. neways i loorve de feeling of being so discipline bout buyiin stuffs.
haven had tis type of feeling fer eyon yrs. n taking evrythin fer granted.

n yar knw wad?? wheneva i go shoppin wiit hueiping. we'll sure to meet some stars!
the last time wen we went shoppin at paragon we saw huang biren. she live up to her name!!
she's tall n slender! jux lk how she potray herself in tv shows. she looks gr8 wen ya get to meet her up-close!
n fer todae, we saw lin xiang ping!
she's shoppin at taka's dkny..! haha she look pettie. sweet n secretive. haaa..
kkaes enuff of all these stars tok. i wasn't realli crazie wen i get to see dem.so i'll stop here.

`haahas.
neways i've spend lk almost 1/2 de dae makin my tis darn blog. it wasn't realli easy tryiin to deal wiit onli words n makiin it into a blog filled wit pixs n songs.
forget to mention the earlier part of de dae... n i knw it'll look messy if i mentioned it here. but i dun wanna care haha cas tis my blog wad rite??
kkaes so i continue todae i woke up lk 11am. wen i'm supposed to wake up earlier to prepare myself fer 12am lect. darn! gr8 rite ? i'm sure ta be late fer it. but i tut it's kkaes neways i've intended nt to go fer tat 1 lect fer the whole dae. i tut it'll be a waste of time travelling dere n going back home which took exactly 45mins per trip! siighs!
travelling ish realli looong. but i loorve having a book to accompany me. havin my book has neva make my travellings borring n nt forgettin my mp3 player.

`giggles..
aft the lect i've left in a hustle. but somehow i saw my primer fren. n u noe wad qns she asked me wen i sae hi! to her ??
she actualli asked me where i bought my shoes.. kewl.. it shows tat i realli hab good taste in choosing my stuffs hahas.. or maybe the credits goto ahfang. i realli loorve the pair of shoes i bought recently lar. but it cost me 32bucks! siighs initially i tut it's 29 bucks but siighs waddeva i still bought it n i m nt regretting any bit.!
kkaes n yar u knw todae was the 2nd dae of nyp open hse. darn kewl! they'll be having lotsa of free things goiin on n i loorve free things . i'm nt tryiin to make myself sounds so cheapo tho. but try imagine gettin some stuffs fer free.. wen u dun thk u nd to spend de xtra cent to get those things n fer nw, ure' gettin it fer FREE! hahahs..! mayb it's becuz i'm beiin grounded by mommy hahas..!
n i shall realli stop ranting bout hw my mommy grounded me. n tell ya bout my new kwel hena i've done! tho i'm nt realli happi tat she done it in jux lk 2 mins or so wen she took lk the whole dae doin hena fer some other peps. i'm gettin really mad. becuz of ken's fren. i've queued n waited fer exactly 45mins alrite n i'm in a hurry to get my roxy blouse.
His main purpose of jumpin queue ish kiinda simple n understandable!He jux wanted to spite me becuz i've been quarelling wiit him. it started ystd.wooarh din knew tat u're so petty.
c'mon lar. newways i tut u're jux spiting me fer de fun of it. n wen i m realli seriously angry. he ain't letting me! darrn! see hw mad can i realli get. feel lk smackin ur face alrite. ur looks realli irks me. n becuz of yar! alrite i better stop sayin or i'll go mad!
kkaes so much fer those anger. i'm gonna hab a fun dae tmr goin to sentosa ..! but i'll be goiin tmr n the following dae.siighs hopee de trip to sentosa wun bored me to death on the comin sat.
yawn..aft so much fer de dae. i'm feeling slpy n i better get to bed b4 tmr i'll be late meeting chickens frens. tataa.a..

11:19 PM

pheww..~
todae's training wsn't realli tough compared to last week it was realli h-e-l-l-!
daa gt it ??
hmmp. as usual played cat n mice. a realli lame game. pardon me joseph. but yaar..! iit's lame lar.
n we even ran 10 rounds. can't stand running 10 rounds non-stop wiit a darn heavy bag-pack so i divided into running n brisk-walkin.
joseph ish tryiin to make us hab de real feeling of having a darn heavy bag while running.
well done.. gd preparation fer our upcomin AQ.
i'm soo excited.
so yaar i actualli manged to finished it. w/o fail, i've been luffing n crapping along the way.
duuhx i bet my frens can't stand me.
shhoosh~
too bad i loorve to crapp. n spouts nonsense.
haahs
aft which we continued by walking ard de sch doiin sprinting wiit our bag n standing-broad-jump.
yaar. i even tried de sit-ups. it's kiinda diff. dere's lk a plank of wood n yar hab to lie realli flat n it's diagonal.
so it's realli tough tryiin to do sit-ups on it.
`beams but u knw wad? i did 7 lar. nt bad rite?
haahs..
wooarh happy. todae's training allow me to shed some fats. haa..i'm growing fat ahh..
kkaes so overall i jux loorve de training n de laughter we had during our walks.
we hab to do lk 10 sit-ups followed by 10 push-ups n 10 start jumps.
evry set increase 10 darnn. torturing rite?
all in all 3 sets.

now my legs r feeling wobbly.
hopee i can hab some complimentary spa?? hahahs
`smiles
nwaes. i loorve the AJ ice beest.!! haa..yummy ice-kachang. de best eva traditional ice-kachang mix wiit choco~drrools.

11:18 PM

boo!
i'm back to blog agaiin.

uugh.exactly how many times did i came back to blog on de same dae?
lotsa of stuffs to sae.
yar wasn't studyin lar.
i aint studious.!

i thk i'm alwaes wasting my time doiin those unimpt stuffs.
rotting here n starin at da comp tryin realli hard to get into cms but it's alwaes down.
darn our sch server. dey can spend money on evrything ,except upgrading de speed.
makin my life realli miserable.
hab to spend long hrs in e-plaza reading those notes.
i wanna enjoy de comfort of being at home.
reading my notes at ease instead of reading in dat darn sch.
de comp ish lousy , my eyes hab to squint to figure out the words on de screen.
i bet my degree will shoot up in time to come.

i've alwaes hab the habit of browsing thru peps blogs.
interesting as it is.
understanding peps life.

now i'm super happy dat i've read finished The promise.
nicee story..
who wanna borrow frm me pls ask frm me i'm more den willing.alrite.
the story ish super touching.swt n interesting.
i wouldnt tok much into the details.
but i shld tell ya abit of itt so tat wuld trigger ya curiousity to bug me fer dat book
::beams:: oh yarr..i'm feeling sooo evil baby. ::giggles::
There's tis ger who falls in loorve wiit this darn rich kid michael. but it's alwaes de case dat the mom dislike de ger. and so she stop them from seeing one anth.
dey decided to get married secretly,but unfortunately they met wiit an accident.
siighs...
n `datah..!!
read the book to find out moree..heee..

now i'm currently reading 5 person u meet in heaven.
dat's realli an awesome book.
u'll nv regret owning it.
i'm in luck!
got it frm my fren by chance.
srle bout holding on to it fer sometime.
i'll finished it asap.
hEee..
now i hab it all by myself.``smiles``

10:36 PM

i'm here.
here to blog my stuffs.

i'm shocked.
haha..darn shocked.!

they actualli got together.
despite hearing how much de guy dislike her in da past.

feelings do change..
yar..

feeling sinful fer once.
i've skipped 2 lects in 1 dae.
aft attending the morn tutorial,
i've headed fer my dental appointment wiit my frens.
changed my color to orange.yar new color fer comin new yr.
isn't tat kool ??
`beams.

n aft which we headed to bugis to collect my fren's coffee bean voucher card.
tut tat somehow he was cheated.dey onli gave hiim a card n tat's all
but..
we're wrong. the card consists of 25 bucks credits.

hurray...we gonna hab free coffee bean drinks!
haa i dun nd to spend my money agaiin.
i'm realli very conscious bout spending evry single cent.
even thk twice b4 ordering a cup of drink
dun it realli sounds spasteek to yar?
and becuz i din wan to spend anth cent fer my travel fee.
i rather skipped my lect n went straight home.

now i'm thkin who wuld be so willing to lend me 30 bucks
hmmp thanx jun wen. it's nicee of ya to offer me ur atm card.
n duuhx...i feel realli bad taking it. so i rather choose nt to lend frm ya.
i knw u do trust me.
but i'm feeling so bad.
siighs.

7:30 PM

n now. n foreva. fer it seems lk an eternity.
we haven been tokin fer ages.
neither of us wanna take de initiative.

fer once, i've been pondering.
de daes we had while we had one anth.
was it jux pure company
or is dere moree to iit ?

i've alwaes yearn fer the feelings dat u gave me b4.
now i hab to try to liive w/o it.

i tut it realli hurts.
n it pains me wheneva the memories floated bback tryyiin to squeeze into my brain.
but i was wrong.
fer once yar..
now i've felt my heart was jux a nutshell.
gonecase.
my heart numbs.
i dun feel lk wad i felt.
sudden rush of sadness.
travelling down my whole body.

to mee:
it doesn't matter anymore.
not anymore.
waitin fer ya msg
waitin fer ya lovey dovey confession fer me.
fer ya to hold onto my hands n sae i'm urs.
it jux doesn't matter to me anymore.

i dun yearn as much as i yearn fer it in da past.
it's PASSE.
i dun run away frm it.
but i liive wiit it.
tho it etched deeply beneath my heart,
the sorrows n cuts i've gained was merely part n parcel of ones life.
w/o it we wun grow.
Nobody ish perrfect.
n i'm a nobody to yar.
*winks my lifee nds nt be wit someone.
it can be jux me cuz tat's my lifee.
cheers =)

11:15 PM

i thk i m rwealli broke lar.
tsktsk`
neva expect such a dae wuld befall on mee.

siighs.
hab been soo tempted to buy lotsa of stuffs.
roxy.mng.topshop.zara.
daarn.
seems tat nw nth matters alot to me except fer havin enuff money to spend.
darn materialistic mee`.
i've been spewing lotsa of money on unecessary clothes/blouse/shoes
even tho i dun realli thk i'm in nd of dem.

madness...``
nw hab to splurge on my braces.
seee ?? get itt ? evrythin nds money larr..
money ish nt evrythin but w/o money u can't livee..
yar i can' live lar.

waddevaa..
siighs shld i gif up on my roxy blousee??
i've been realli very tight up wiit my money.
but i realli super duper loorve dat blouse.
siighs.
n worst, i've reserved iit.
i'm gonna fork out 50 bucks fer tat darn idiotic exp blouse.
n den stop shoppin b4 newyr comes back.
yar STOP SHOPPIN!
yayaa as if i realli can.. tsssk

10:54 PM

siighs`
can't help but to stop thkiing bout the donating blood topic.!
evry1 seems to be toking bout it .

aye...
n i can't help but stop thking bout the 2 unsuccessful attempts to donate my precious blood.

1st attempt: yr 2004
i was heading to the blood centre happily tut dat i culd do something meaningful by donating my blood.!
n aft having all the check-ups done. i was proud of myself dat i've pass all test ...
so i entered the donating room.
n dere evryone was donating deir blood.
i've found a seat n waited patiently fer the nurse.
they prepared the injection stuffs n some tubings.
n ddarn,
somethiin realli toopid happened laar.
the nurse actualli refuse to draw my blood.
she gave me de reason tat she can't realli find my vein, cuz it's nt obvious n she doesn't wan to hurt me wiit lots of bruise on my hand.ddaarn.
i gave her a WAD ??! LOOk.
i doubt her profession.
grrr..
kkays so i happily left the place...

2nd attempt:
tut by now i shld be able to donate my blood.
our sch ish holding tis blood donating driive.
yar kiinda happy.
n noww..!
wad happened?
the doc refuse to allow me to donate my blood.
cuz i've been to cambodia.darrn!
n nw it's de doc's prob!??!
i was kiinda mad lar.
i took my booklet n sticker.
n ihab to leave da room w/o donating my blood.
she told me if i realli wan to donate my blood i hab to weigh 51kg n above lar.
c'mon man ridiculous if i weigh 51. i'll look lk a fat pig stormin my way evrywhere i go.
kkays.siigh.see i hab to resign to my fate. i wasn't fated to donate my BLOOD lar!
so i happily left my fren dere alone.
n yar fer these nxt 3 yrs i can't donate blood
wooarh isn't dat darn grt??
by den i'll pass out as a staff nurse happily studyin in aust.
ddarrn.`

8:04 PM

siighs i'm bacck..
hab been hibernating fer somee peace.

fiinally had all my tuts sorted outta.

i've found more meaning in liife.

yiwen's chalet was a gr8 one.
happy bdae yar..
hopee u loorve de roxy handbag.
hAa..
diin realli noe wad ya lack of.
so i decided to get tat.

hur`
it's good dat i haven been bloggin .
or i'll wriite silly stuffs.

yarr..
i'm back to my normal self =)

11:13 PM

"Everything"It's been nine days, eight hours
Forty minutes, ten seconds
Since you called
I've been so crazy
I've just about
Taken our picture
Off the wall
It's been three months
Over hundred days
Since you held my hand
And I miss you in
A thousand ways
Will I ever see you again?

{BRIDGE:}
How did it change so fast?
(I won't give youTo the past)
I really thought it'd last

::Chorus:
All that we had was
So unbelieveable
Now that it's gone
It's just inconceivable
Still in my dreams
You were so damn beautiful
How could it be
That you ruined my
Everything
Everything
Everything?

Everything
Everything
Everything

It seems like
Everyone everywhere's in love
So, where are you?
And I remember
You couldn't get enough
Said you felt it too
So didn't you

9:36 PM

ii'm feeling soo sleepy.!!
i thk i better get to bed soon..yawn..
`woke up at 7.30 on a SUNDAY!!

awww...no choice .cuz i choose to go fer church service at adams rd.
zzz...todae will be a resting dae fer me.
i choose nt to go to sentosa n instead stay at hm n rest.
srle bout tat..i knw i'm so irresponsible.
but....i'm dead tired!

i blif i wun be able to open my eyes n walk all da way ard sentosa.
yup.
hmmp..i thk i gotta go fer a nap n wake up feeling refresh
den i'll start revising my nursing notes.
i haven been reading de notes.
can't be a better student den any1 !

will blog at niitee.. =p

2:32 PM

yiikes..!!
my ears r feelin hot.aww..
wad's wiit it ??
hmmm...

waddeva..
sigh`
todae sales at ngee ann city was terrible.
the weather did nt permit us to sell any stuffs.
it's been havin on/off rain.
suucks.
n there's nt a single soul walkin down wisma dat area.
aww...

nwae..todae ish darn happening.
hahaaa..
u knw wad i saw ??
i actualli saw these 5 peeps.
wearing beach wear..!!
2 hunks 3 babes..!!
wooo the 3 babes wore bikins n onli boarding shorts!
n as fer the 2 hunks they realli look darn charming.
i was soo attracted by dem tat i actualli did nt even utter a word to ask dem buy those stuffs.
wooo... the more interesting part was that. they'll holding this wakeboard at their side.
awww man..isn't tat soo cool ??
`giggles.
i tut i wuld lk onli spot such things in de tv [The Champion]
gaaa...but i actualli saw it in orchard!!
woo they r nt filming fer anythin.
they're jux walking down orchard i suppose..!!
n imagine walking aft the rain.
wuldn't it be lk so freezing cold!!??

i salute dem!
=)
nwae if ya realli dare to me walk down de street lk dat i doubt i'll do it too..hee
but i can't promise it wun happen ?woarh isn't it so contradicting?
heee...
nwae..the guy ish a cutie..!!
i was lk soooo shocked when he look at me. but woo who knws he might be looking at something else instead..hahaha..

oh n yar..
i almost forget to mention the event at ngee ann city
it's the bb julibee relay.
it's a gr8 event!!
dey even invited the real swim shadys!
hahaa...consists of 5 spore swimmers.!!
budden...mark chay wasn't dere..
sighs`
but it's alriite.. gary ish a darn hottie.
he sings realli well!!
n de songs de band played was simply awesome!!
i just looorve iit.!

11:57 PM

`sighs
y can't ya jux be moree sincere ??

ya man i'm foolish.
i m alrite.
i sae i'm gonna jux forget evrythin n let bygones be bygones.

but y m i nt doiin tat..
cchantile!!
wad's wiit ya??

`tsktsk
i'm mad yea i'm crazie.
n wad?
so ??
y can't i jux throw away all those memories n leave my past fer my future.
n y m i still living in da past while he's living in da future.
it's nt fair how's fast he's moving on n i'm left alone in da past.

is tis wad i wan ?
or izzt i'm trapped in it ?
i jux can't seem to get out.
sighs.
i wan hiim to msg me.
i wan hiim to tok to me lk a norm fren.

i dun wanna be a weakling in front of hiim
cuz i'm a mentally strong ger.
i'm independent.
i'm being seen as one!

i dun wanna pour my sorrows outta.
i wanna look happy.
cuz i'm ..happy.
i siigh more den any single soul living in dis world.
cuz i've been sighing non-stop.
it's been days n weeks since i've neva tut i'll stop sighin.

alrite ?
i knw it's sounds pathetic.
i dun nd pity frm any1.
it's kkays.
thanx to all my frens.
hope i wasn't disrupting ya liife ..
rattling bout my sorrows.

spasteek!
mooi liife issh ddarn fuull of rubbish..!

frm now on!
i better stop stoopin myself.
makkin my life soo pathetic.
i shld promise myself nt to eva blog such melancholy stuffs.
darn !
yap i shld realli live my life to de fullest.
each day had enuff of it's probs.
y do i still try to add in more probs ?
to my alrdy problematic lyfe.

10:30 PM

"Little did I know you were just another dead end road, made with pretty lies and broken dreams."

"It happens without reason, when we expect it least. It pulls our heart to pieces, as teardrops dance and secrets feast upon the hearts of innocence. Where truth remains untold, beneath the sounds of silence that broken hearts unfold."

"When I saw you I thought I had you, when I lost you I realized I never had you."

11:23 PM

shld i follow my hearrt ?
or shld i follow my mind..

pp alwaes sae follow ur hearrt n it'll lead ya to where ya wanna go.
sighs`
but tat's nt alwaes de case..

followin de hearrt meaning u'll get hurt moree..
usually de heart ish forgivin.

yap. i dun wanna bear any grudges.
i jux can't do tat..
but wheneva i thk back of da past.
of hw he tricked me into fallin in loorve wiit him 1st makes me sick bout evrythin.
i tut he's exceptional
unlk thoose guys
but i hate to tell myself
i'm wrong.

i get upset easily.
n i was brainwashed bout` how mean all guys r..
practically i jux hatee relationships.
i dun wanna hatee hiim
cuz i can't make myself ...hattin ya.

so does it mean tat aft makiin a mistake ,
sorry ish de onli cure ?
if sorry culd cure evrythin.
there' wuldn't be heartache in da world.

shld i be glad tat such things happened to me?
or shld i sulk at the situtation i'm facin?

alrrite i'm darn confuse.
darn upset bout evrythin
wad do i realli wan ?
wad do ya realli wan??

isn't beiin frens a better choice?
but we're more lk strangers..
de sad thing boutt evrythin ish havin ta look straight into ya eyes.
n declare we've neva met b4.

"Sometimes the people who you thought you knew...start becoming the strangers you never wanted."

can some1 jux tell me wad to do..
instead of lettin me
floating all alone in da vast ocean.

i wanna movee on.
i'm tryiin to movee on.
i'm jux in a state of dilema.
once my tuts r clear.
i will survive you.

sighs.
cchantille nds constructive advises..

1:10 AM

"No one can ever promise you they will never hurt you, because at one time or another it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end."

9:52 PM

I see the picture clear now
And the fog has lifted
The wool you tried to pull over my eyes was clever
Yeah, your gifted
But you forgot to dot some i's and cross some t's along the way
I'm better now despite you baby
I'm stronger these days, stronger

I survived the crash, survived the burn
Survived the worst, yeah baby but i learned
Survived the lies, survived the blues
Almost killed me but I survived the truth
And when you wrote me off like i was doomed,
I survived you

I can look in the mirror now
It's been a slow awakening
Haunted by a heart full of you
I couldn't help mistaking
That you could ever care for anyone
Anyone but yourself, hey-yeah
But you would have to have a conscience baby,
Good luck, I wish you well

I survived the crash, survived the burn
Survived the worst, yeah baby but i learned
Survived the lies, survived the blues
Almost killed me but I survived the truth
And when you wrote me off like i was doomed,
I survived you

This hearts been torn in two
Cut and bruised from too many bitter endings
I'll be damned if I have thoughts of you
Rain on my new beginning...

1:18 AM

"There's a first tiime fer evry'thiin; evry'thiin has ta hab a beginning ... but den again, evrythiin has ta end."

Now i''m gonna comment on iit again.
i loorve commenting on love quotes..
it jux gonna tell ya wad's my perspective of loorve.

there's alwaes a 1st time fer evrythin.!!
yup..aft tryiin outta once gettin hurt once
ya gonna learn ya lesson n be cleverer..

sooo oof cuz evrythin has ta hab a beginning..
w/o a beginning it's nth.
but once it's started it's gonna end fer sure..
it's jux wen it's gonna end..
it's either earlier or later ?

11:23 PM

[beams] jux finished my bio lect.. zzz
hee...ii'm so happi dat sch started alrdy . all my frens hab nt changee...
all of dem r soo frendly as b4..!

wooo...i've lotsa stuffs to study...
Biology..
psychology..
clinical science..
blah blah blah..

hmm better try to switch my biological clock to da rite tiime.
hab been slpin at 9am in da morn n wakiin up durin evenings...
wooah isn't it darn terrible?

my new yr wasn't a realli grt one..
but i suppose tat's a gd experience havin it spent at clubbin located at clarke quay.
oOpss lucky i left da place earlier or i'll be brought to da police fer beiin to enter underage.
darn!
but it's k...`sighs

so we went to cine fer countdown.
but to avoid gettin sprayed..
i actualli hid inside at burger king.
so i practically spend my countdown dere..
darrrnn.... it can't be any borrin seeing pp eatiin burger..
ugGhh..alrite at least i tut it's better den stayyin at hm rite?

so aft tat we headed to MS..
it was a wastee..
we kept wasting our money fer de high cost cab fares on dat dae.
walkiing was tiring.
esp wiit my heels.
but i'm gettin use to iit.
rush n angel was flooded wiit bengs n lians nt to mention tat we actualli can merge into de crowd.
duuhx ? so wiil i eva merge wiit dem..naah of cuz nt ?
i'm nt a lian alrite ?
hahaha...i dun mind admitting as a pyschotic byotch ..
tt's wad my frens claimed.
i'm darn sick in mind ?
but so ??
doo ya thk i kaire ?

haaa tt's deir prob alrite ?
i'm me , myself n i.
i loorve who m i n nt humble bouut it.
yaeea..comment anythiin ya loorve cauz i dun live my life fer others.
wooo wad an arrogant comment but duuhx i dun kairee..
muhahahaa... hmmp tat's bouut it..
i''m so happi at least ive been chilling out b4 sch starts..
hurray...it's gonna be a tough yr ahead but 2005 shld be a yr i'll be excited bout.
cuz i can learn driving at it means..........
saviin tiime goiin to sch n yap i can wake up laTEEE!!!

1:16 PM