not that i think it's damn important to get this across, but ive decided to let people know that, im living my life well and that im almost gotten out of my difficult situation tho at times im still struggling no qualms, i got God's strength. i work and i slog and then i get exhausted and burnt.- den finally i'll choose to stop just to take a breath and then i start weeping with tears rolling uncontrollably. and then i'll ask God what's his will? all over again. again n again. till im tired n sick. and then i tell myself. someday it's gonna change. i'll ask, " God' i knw ur will, and i'll follow." ultimately, i'll not be thinking. been enjoying myself in children church bringing smiles and laughter to kids. tho im tired, im still serving well. Becas my God is a great God. sometimes i'll question myself, why must i go thru all these? and then i'll stop and tell myself to take a break. and then i'll fight against my conscience, no u can't stop becas u stop u'll think. why bother? and then i start sloggin.- when will it end? only when im neither here nor there. when ive reach the final destination n hopefully after this month. haven been happy for this whole month or let's say these past few months. trying busy enuff to keep myself fully occupied. that happens for these past few months.- now i wanna take a break away from sg. gdbye, my frens' hopefully i''ll choose to rest in peace at UK. after studies in sg. cas im tired. nothing is really worth my stay except for grandma and mom. in case evryone is shock to see RIP. well it doesn't mean the RIP it usually meant. sch's tmr. im happy. im still praying for u, don't worry and i still have u in my heart. i'll be missing. but it's not gonna last for long...really.. cas one day it'll be used up.
