i cried. ;) because im disappointed with myself and my expectations are too high. and i can't accept the fact of failing. is this a lesson ought to be learn and grow from God. i know all things come in for a reason and no things are redudant...Im loving the kids in church- and i really miss them. =) im growing to love kids and appreciate them and care for them in a special way and get God to bless them and fill the place with his presence. I want to be a Mary not a Martha. I want to get the strength from God alone. Recently my church has started this marriage conference. Not bad, and well i think sometimes it doesn't mean that it's only applicable to married couples alone =) and im really getting great revelation from God, it had helped me alot about thinking about my future soulmate and prevent marriage breakage and even to the smallest detail like getting the right partner.and i think this poem really makes me wanna cringe at how marriage is so sacred. and that mine would be like this too. The poem "I Need you" by Jerry and Barbara CookI need you in my times of strength and in my weakness;
I need you when you hurt as much as when i hurt.
There is no longer the choice as to what we will share.
We will either share all of life or be fractured persons.
I didn't marry you out of need or to be needed
We were not driven by instincts or emptiness;
We made a choice of love.
But i think something supernatural happens at the point of marriage commitment
(or maybe it's actually natural).
A husband comes into existence;
a wife is born.
He is a whole man before and after,
but at a point of time he becomes a man who also is a husband;
That is ---a man who needs his wife.
She is a whole woman before and after.
But from now on she needs him.
She is herself
But now also part of a new unit.
Maybe this is what it means in saying,
"What God hath joined together."
Could it be He really does something special at "I Do"?
Something like His creation of a mother when a woman gives birth;
(something so real that neither can quite survive again without the other).
Joining together---in marriage---
two self sufficient beings into an independence so real
That when you hurt I hurt
(there's nothing I can do about it!).
Your despair is mine even if you don't tell me about it.
But when you do tell,the sharing is easier for me.
(To know why i hurt, no matter how frightening the cause, is easier than living with the theories that fear suggests.)
And you also can then share from my strength in that weakness.
If we are one
then perhaps you don't always
carry the antibodies
within youself
to fight every infection.
Some wounds are healed
by resoureces carried
in my part of our unit.
When part of body is endangered
all the rest gears to its defense.
Shouldn't that be true in a pair
so committed
they are called
one flesh?
