kkaes de feelin is helluva. hard ta describe. yar i noe, i shan't alwaes resort ta ways to express myself. lk bloggin my unhappy stuffs in. n i seldom blog happy moments. yar. my blog changed into an unhappy blog. supposed evry1 notice it, cas my blog is never seen ta be happy. yar dis feeling is killin me. i culd feel it so deep within. wadsoevas. i jux feel lousy. i'm kind of insane. i' hab this tuner dat makes me go yayas but still it dun last. n i alwaes end up being sick of it. sounds cheem ? but it's meant ta be. in fact, i jux can't ditch my emotions which is harassing me.. i thk i abit of pyschotic. i get depress easily, so take fer example, if something bad hits hard on me even the puniest thing dat had struck on me. i wuld nrt be feeling rite fer de whole dae. i'll jux keep my mouth shut n try to cast myself into somewhere outta sorrows. or mayb i got it wrong. i'll dwell on it.... n keep dwelling. dat's jux so me.cries- n i mite loorve ta correct evry1 ,pls dun try ta sae u understand evrythin so perfectly. i suppose none wuld eva feel wad i m going thru. somehow i alwaes expect things ta be liddart. it's tough tryin to guess wad ya're thkin lars. lk who u thk i m? -fluctuated from abit of sadness to misery and then down to de depths of depression. sounds realli horrid. but yars. at any rate, i haven had enuff rest for myself. i've tut dat my house serves no function but that of a residence. which is a sad thing to sae out of a house. i've been wandering out wheneva i culd find time. i dun njoy my days at hm. -sadistic. --helluva--tho i'm sociable in da ssense dat i've neva lk being alone, but complete solitude is suddenly so bewitchin ta me nows. tho de tut of 'cast away' thing is abit extreme la. ironical, i jux wan ta be alone in de lap of luxury.
