i dunno wad's wit mee.. wad's my life cmin to. n i suppose my life's in a mess. everything is clad and tangled up together. wadeva relating to me r jux in A MESS. my studies, blah blah blah.. life suppose to be fun . but mine ish more kinda of terrible. t-e-r-r-i-b-l-e! oOOps....hIYyaa... i shan't be thking too much. hab been thking bout' some stuffs fer a longg longg time. n i hopee it wun distract me further. anymore.. tis thingy had been stallin in my mind fer like quite somee time . n it's likee rottin inside. i betta get rid of it. n stop thking. it's nt doin me any gd. i suppose i jux nd to take a step at a time. n see hw it goes. hopefully it isn't wad i've alwaes tut. easier said den done. hab been alwaes tryin to tell myself to ditch away tat icky feeling tat makes me go headwired.. though it makes me happi fer sometime, but aft awhile de sadness comes in again. so it's likee a routine everyday it's happening. so i'm sick n tired of it. tired n sick of it. duhx isn't it de same.?!?sick n tired n tired n sick. so it means tat..no matter hw hard i try, i'll still hab tis feeling stayin inside of me. i hopee dat i possess some kind of witchcraft. so i can alwaes understand wad's every1 thking bout' n i wun be left guessin wad dey're thkin n sayin. it sux ! i hab to read deir mind n act as if i knw everything but in fact. i dunno!! n ya..if i eva knw wad pp r thkin mayb it make things easier fer me. i can jux leave wen dey dun wanna see me, stay wen dey wans me to be dere. n do wad dey thk ish gd. n dun do things dat dey thk is bad. sEe i get so much privelege in all these stuffs. n soon i'll be a likable person. y mux i try sooo hard to be a lovable person. y can't i be myself?!? m i tryin too hard ??i jux had enuff of every bit of things. dat gather up n become a virus dat attacks me. onee day if i shan't hab de rite ans i'll jux leave silently. (nt dying lar)
